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Karl L

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The past two days all I've had is dark thoughts. Struggling. Urge to self harm is so strong. Can't see a way out of this. Didn't help myself tonight as I watched a film that is a trigger for me.....
 
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it feels like a cloud sometimes it lasts long sometimes it doesn't but sometimes it can get so bad you do it if thats how you feel id seek help go to a hospital if you feel you might hurt yourself
 
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Hi Karl,
Do you have a crisis team you can phone? If not see your GP or ring 111 if in the UK.
Hope you feel better soon.
Take care
 
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I see a counsellor twice a week. But I cancelled my appointment today as I didn't want to talk about things. Does this make me weak??
 
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you are not weak I used to cancel my therapist when things felt to much to talk about I realise now though that I could have done with the support
please stay safe
love Lu xxx
 
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Thank you. I promise to try.
Trouble sleeping tonight, I have my comfort blanket (a monkey) with me. I've had the monkey for 22 years. Silly but it helps in bad times xx
 
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Horrible thoughts tonight. Struggling to find strength. Not sure what to do. Can't sleep......Just pacing around the house :(
 
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Did something stupid last night. Feel disgusted with myself. :( :(
 
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Hi Karl,
Please get help if you have any injuries, don't be to hard on yourself.
Take care
 
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I have a telephone assessment tomorrow for a 24/7 counselling service. Feel very nervous :(
 
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Had my assessment was nervous. :(
No worries, there aren’t any correct answers for those sorts of things. Can only be honest. Hope you’re feeling better. I think the monkey sounds sweet. I’ve definitely considered bringing some of my old stuffed animals from my parents’ house to my apartment. There’s just not too much room for them to move in with me hahaha.
 
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:) The monkey is named Gilly. I also have a collection of toy story toys. May sound silly but they help me feel secure. Feel mentally drained tonight. I'm off work tomorrow so going try and chill out a bit
 
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:) The monkey is named Gilly. I also have a collection of toy story toys. May sound silly but they help me feel secure. Feel mentally drained tonight. I'm off work tomorrow so going try and chill out a bit
Omg weird I’m watching a toy story thing rn. ☺️ Small world.
 
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Very small world :)
My favourite characters are Woody and Rex :)
 
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Hamm is brilliant too. I also listen to music on my down days :)
 
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