Well its better that you stay here - people would miss you, we all die sometimes but it doesn;t need to be now. What can you think that would make you a tiny bit happier - it doesn;t have to be anything big - just something small
Its so so difficult to get motivated whne you feel so low - have you tried talking about it to anyone else??
Tbh don't think anybody would even notice let alone give a damn! I don't know. No nobody knows about how I'm feeling and the very few care one minuite then the next couldn't care less. Sorry I should probs go now, stop moaning on about things that can't be changed!
Hi Sara - maybe worth trying to see your gp again? Or going to another doctor in the practice if that is an option? And there are other sources of support too - here, of course, which I hope you are finding helpful, and NHS Direct, and the Samaritans. You can email the Samaritans which I have found good in the past - they don't always answer as quickly as you might like but there is more anonymity which can be good too.
What Keepsafe said about thinking about little things that can make you feel a bit happier is really good advice, I think - it is good sometimes to strip it all down and focus on little things, like a smell or how something feels. I guess it is mindfulness (- really trying to focus on the here and now, rather than what is past (which we can't change) and what might be to come (which we can't know).
I suppose I have just learnt in the past that opening up to people can lead to loosing slot of people including some good friends... So now when people might ask what's wrong I just find it easier to say nothing, not the best thing to do I doubt but much easier! And I can't stand sitting face to face with someone I don't know.... Find it sooo hard to open up and tell them what's going on and how I'm feeling.
It's really not easy opening up. Would you think about printing out some of the things you've written here? I have done that before, and I know other forum members have too.
And telling friends and family is really not easy, is it? In my experience, some are surprisingly supportive and some really don't have a clue! I'm sorry you have lost friends through it, but I hope it does help being here and knowing that people do understand how it is.