
jackshepard
Well-known member
Hi.
I'm started a new thead, as I just saw the one I opened when I came asking for help is getting very long, and I don't want everyone's attention to focus on me.
Well, as I said in that thread, for the past 10 days, I had violent thoughts like the ones I used to get everyday at about 6-7 PM when I was a pre-teen. I'm crying inside all the time. Even yesterday that was a great day for me (and anyone else) as I went to a theme park near Paris with the sweetest person I've ever met, she invited some of her friends, and I was depressed everytime the 2 couples there kissed each other. Today, that was the bus that never came and I arrived 30 mins late in class. All the morning I wanted to scream and break everything in my college because of these small things. I'm also afraid death thoughts are back, as I dreamt about dying alone from the swine flu (I think I watched the news and "I am Legend" a bit too much), and this morning, the only solution I thought of for my problems was suicide, even with extra meds.
I talked about this to my psychiatrist on thursday, but I got no help from her, except maybe giving me more pills so I lied saying everything else's fine because I'm already sleeping in class with what I take.
I'm started a new thead, as I just saw the one I opened when I came asking for help is getting very long, and I don't want everyone's attention to focus on me.
Well, as I said in that thread, for the past 10 days, I had violent thoughts like the ones I used to get everyday at about 6-7 PM when I was a pre-teen. I'm crying inside all the time. Even yesterday that was a great day for me (and anyone else) as I went to a theme park near Paris with the sweetest person I've ever met, she invited some of her friends, and I was depressed everytime the 2 couples there kissed each other. Today, that was the bus that never came and I arrived 30 mins late in class. All the morning I wanted to scream and break everything in my college because of these small things. I'm also afraid death thoughts are back, as I dreamt about dying alone from the swine flu (I think I watched the news and "I am Legend" a bit too much), and this morning, the only solution I thought of for my problems was suicide, even with extra meds.
I talked about this to my psychiatrist on thursday, but I got no help from her, except maybe giving me more pills so I lied saying everything else's fine because I'm already sleeping in class with what I take.