Avoidant personality with dependence, anxiety and low self esteem

[Str8arrow]

Hi all,

My first topic on the forum. As you can figure out from the heading, its pretty straight forward. I have been struggling with my personality issues since teenage. Made friends but lost them because they decided to ditch me as time went by or I could not do enough to hold on to them. I'm 28 right now and I feel pretty down because of this. At 28 , I do not have close friends or sometimes even friends I can talk to and go about my day. This has created a toxic belief system in me about myself that I'm not good enough or I lack something. Does anyone feel or have similar stuff going on? I have lot of things to share, but don't want to overburden it all in the first post.

 

[calypso]

Hiya and welcome to the forum. You do have a lot to deal with don't you? Its all so much stress and struggle for you. What happens when you make a friendship? Do you then avoid them and lose them that way?

I don't think you lack something. I think more people than care to admit it have trouble making friends and coping with anxiety. It is a destructive MH condition and leads to fears about everything. Have you ever tried therapy to get to the bottom of what is wrong with you? I think it could really help.