- Dec 15, 2014
- Greater Manchester, England
I'd be interested to know if anyone here has APD and if they have managed to overcome it. For as long as I can remember I've always had problems socialising with others. I avoid pretty much every social function outside family events, hate going into shops if I have to go I'd rather go when it's dark out, crowded places, meetings of any form ,struggle to hold a conversation. (even with family memebers and with my 2 former closest friends) friends I have made in the past I managed to push away due to curiosity to why they would interact with me. About the only time I can speak to people is when I know they genuinely need help and they ask me for it, when I'm it that situation I seem to be fine more in my element if anything but once I've assisted ill just dissappear again and hope someone else will need me for something. Even the 2 good friends I had would often pick up on something being wrong and ask if everything is ok I'd just say "yea I'm good" but then I'd just have to make an excuse up and leave. Even posting on here sometimes I second guess myself or delete any entire post. When I have being in situations where would know I am right about something or a worthy fact I could share, I won't put myself forward and rather just let someone else take the floor. For a long time now I have genuinely believed that maybe I am here just to help, of course not at the moment because I'm a complete mess, I'd be no use to anyone. Again it would be interesting to know you're story if you have a similar experience and also if you have overcome it.