Avoidant personality disorder triggers

[BornGone]

Hey, I just wanted to know if it was like that for everyone.
I mostly struggle with social interactions which includes conversations, meeting new people. I never really feel save around anyone. There is always this feeling of stress and pent up pressure inside of me when talking to people. My self esteem is not the best but how could it be? I'm ugly,stupid, wierd, boring and worthless.
I cant handle conflicts with familiy and friends. When I get hurt I just want to hurt or kill myself.
There is also a feeling of me that could be best described as a combination of despair and restlessness. When this feeling occurs I mostly start doing changes to my appearence or do something that is quit risky.
Can anyone relate?

 

[Rowan]

I cant handle conflicts with familiy and friends. When I get hurt I just want to hurt or kill myself.
There is also a feeling of me that could be best described as a combination of despair and restlessness. When this feeling occurs I mostly start doing changes to my appearence or do something that is quit risky.
Can anyone relate?

So, were you diagnosed with Avoidant PD? That sounds a bit like Borderline personality disorder.

 

[BornGone]

So, were you diagnosed with Avoidant PD? That sounds a bit like Borderline personality disorder.

I don't know, my therapist startes with this hypothesis of avoidant personality disorder, dysthymia and social anxiety.
But isn't the core of bpd the fear of abondonment and being alone?

 

[Rowan]

I don't know, my therapist startes with this hypothesis of avoidant personality disorder, dysthymia and social anxiety.
But isn't the core of bpd the fear of abondonment and being alone?

I'm not an expert, I was diagnosed myself with BPD. I would say the abandonment is quite common, but emotional instability is also another feature.

 

[BornGone]

I'm not an expert, I was diagnosed myself with BPD. I would say the abandonment is quite common, but emotional instability is also another feature.

Do you have a specific example/situation of a trigger?(only if you want to share it) I always find it easier to understand what thoughts/actions come with the generalized criteria of the dsm.because they overlap a certain points/actions but are caused by different feeling/thoughts. Like withdrawing from social life in depression and social anxiety.