- Oct 6, 2019
I've been on and off boards since around my 1st diagnosis, but I would do as you said is typical for us- delete, go back on, delete. So many different mental health sites and forums- I'm surprised I'm still here, but I'm not as frequent as I probably should be.I was radames on the MSN site now deleted. I was also avpdman after I was banned. I was Parador on a still barely active site before I got banned. I was scarpia on an SA site before I got banned. There were a couple of smaller avpd sites that I was on. I only remember avpd shipwreck. It died before I got banned! I usually get banned. Anti-psychiatry rubs people the wrong way. And people don't like hearing about my abusive past.
I know for a fact that my abusive past is the cause of my PD. I've broken it down, psycho-analysed it and done the psychology degree in order to properly understand what I deal with. I didn't do it for any other reason than to understand what I am. I have also faced one of my abusers with it and remind her frequently of what she's condemned me to.
I can't say that solves anything.
I'm pretty much accepting of who I am now. Doesn't make it easier, but I've stopped fighting.