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At the end of my tether

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eternaljourney

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I don't know what to do, I'm thinking about taking an overdose.
No one will listen to me, no one understands me
 
KP1

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Don't do it , there are always options even though it might not seem like it. See your GP today and tell them how desparate you feel.
Take care.
KP:hug:
 
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quality factor

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Hi there eternaljourney, Try your best to occupy yourt thoughts with other, more positive things...I know its not easy.
Taking an overdose is not the answer.
See your GP as soon as you can.
Take care and keep posting.
 
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eternaljourney

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I did take an overdose. I'm back home after such a short amount o time.
I had some liasson psychatric team member ask pointless questions and leave me with nothig. He's wring to my GP. Not that tthat reall y matters. Gps can refuse antyhin gthat even the psychiatrista suggest about meds and care.
It's all a ccomplete waist of time.
If you ask me will I overdose again? The answer would be yes. It's a display that I'm feeling so bad and who knows perhaps it'll take me peacefully fromthis cruel world.

The entire system stinks and yes in most areas of socity mental health issues are something to fear or fascinate. We will still be pushed around, dismissed and have power hungry arseoles take advantage of any vulnerabily
Isn't it fuckung hilarios that I'm in despair!
 
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quality factor

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Hi eternaljourney,
What can I say? I sense your despair and all I can do is to try and understand cos I've been there, I know that is no consolation to you though at this time.
My words cannot stop you from doing it again, but at least give some thought to the turmoil you are going to leave for the others you leave behind who care about you.
Keep posting, we want to hear from you.
 
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Please don't do it.Go back to a&e and ask to be admitted or ring samaritians or your out of hours doctors service.You need help and care not to end it all.
Please take care.
KP
 
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Hey Eternal, I listen and will listen to you and so many people love you. Please talk to us or someone it doesn't have to be this way there are other ways and directions you can take to a better future.
 
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eternaljourney

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It's nice that there are so many good people on this site and I have great respect the members that are older than me and just keep battling. But this is just like the blind leading the blind, we can care about one another and share special bonds especially given that we've never been in one anothers prescence. I imagine honesty in some eyes, kindness or fun and maybe high intelligence but I don't know. I just imagine from the humanity that I read in the words.
I'm angry...very angry:mad:. I just need a bit of chill time with my partner.

If any of you would like you can come over, drink too much, start talking rubbish, put music on and dance:dance: in a way that's only an embarressment when sobre. We've got a great music collection and all different lighting to match our moods.
We can chat problems, come uo with outragioius solutions and set the world to right:wine::clap::clap:Without the humour I would be doing my nut!
 
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Hi eternal, I've been waiting for you to post again...well done for that!
I can understand why you are so very angry, but don't give your life up for your anger.
Keep posting,talk things out, if you want to..somebody will be here.
Have a really good chill!.
I'm not very good at map reading so it would probably take about 3 months to get to yours!!
Be good and take care.:flowers:
 
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Hey eternal,

Please be safe and vent here - anger can push us over the top - dance it all away.
Wishing I could help you more and having a dance with you.
KS
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Hi Eternal Journey.
I'll come and party with you I'm great at drinking wine and talking rubbish.
Hope you are ok tonight.
KP:hug:
 
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The entire system stinks and yes in most areas of socity mental health issues are something to fear or fascinate. We will still be pushed around, dismissed and have power hungry arseoles take advantage of any vulnerabily
Isn't it fuckung hilarios that I'm in despair!
I hope you don't give up. I may not understand your situation entirely but I've been so angry I smashed up my own house....and I once spent all night talking to police negotiators (who really irritated me). Anger is okay until it stops serving you. I know it's hard but there is a way beyond it all. And there are some (not many maybe) mental health professionals who are wonderful.

Once I got to the blindingly angry stage I found people less and less helpful...and the angrier I became. I am lucky that I found a psychologist I could trust and the ongoing support of a really nice CPN....who told me recently that 'being hostile does'nt help me'. I, of course, hung up the phone in anger....but I rang back later and I felt I had passed some important milestone...because he understood and accepted me and the anger....and was pointing out with compassion that it was harming me more than anyone else.

Anyhow.....I hope you find the support you need.

P.s I filed a complaint about the last 'power-hungry' arsehole that I encountered in hospital. I told him I would and I did. I'm not so angry about him anymore.
 
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There is always hope hun. I do understand as I've been through it and if anyone had told me then I would feel better I didn't have believed them. But I do :)

You need to talk to somebody, a doctor, friend, or even a helplin if you'd rather do so anonemously. You will feel better :)

Sending you love and kindest wishes

Orchidxxx
 
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Hi.
Just hope you're OK. I don't know if I'm as talented as you to give good advices, but YOU gave me some several times about my depression and you're one of the ones who kept me from drinking the bottles that were under my sink. Now, for safety, I threw all of my detergents into the toilet to avoid any suicidal temptation. Don't know if it would help you, but maybe you should do that with your meds if you're too tempted in taking an overdose.

Hope you're fine. You helped me several times, just hope I can do so for you.
Hope you're doing well.
 
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eternaljourney

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Well I ended up back in hospital the other week and I've been offered some extra help. Just waiting on the brown envelope to drop through the door.
My depression is very, very heavy at the moment. You know when it's even an effort to lift your head and if your not sleeping your just staring into space.
I'm not going to do anything stupid though, not life threatening. I've cut myself after not doing for a number of months.
I do have good people around me and a partner that i love very much, it's just that the past has destroyed me. I'm trying to deal with it all and it makes me feel like such a failure.
 
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