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At my wit's end...

Lincoln1990

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I think I'm ready to die. I think I want to do it very badly.

People can hear what I'm thinking. Everyone wants to hurt me.

I've written letters. I'm ready.
 
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No, don't do anything to hurt yourself. :hug1: you need to get some help right now.
Please keep yourself safe.
 
Lincoln1990

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No, don't do anything to hurt yourself. :hug1: you need to get some help right now.
Please keep yourself safe.
I'm over this. I can't do it anymore.
 
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You can do this, you really can. You just can't see what we can.

Please stay strong

xxx
 
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I cannot hear what you are thinking

I do not want to hurt you and I would miss you if you took your life. :hug1:
 
Lincoln1990

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I'm so scared. I've never been this scared. I'm frightened to leave my room, forget leaving the house. Unless I have appts I don't leave my room. I've covered all of th windows and mirrors in the house. Though they've taken down the ones that aren't in my room. I'm supposed to go to the college to enroll. But I'm too scared.

I'm absolutely really scared.
I don't know what to do. I'm ready to die. I really am ready. I shouldn't have posted this. Because I've upset people.

I'm sorry. So very sorry.
 
Wiseowl

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Hi Lincoln

I'm not upset that you posted and I'm glad you are sharing your feelings with us.

What is scaring you?

What course are you enrolling on? :hug1:
 
Lincoln1990

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Hi Lincoln

I'm not upset that you posted and I'm glad you are sharing your feelings with us.

What is scaring you?

What course are you enrolling on? :hug1:
Just everything is scaring me. Every single thing. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid if I don't enroll in college Sue won't want to be my therapist anymore. It's supposed to be an English course.

But I don't even know if I want to go to college. I can't hold a job. I can't do anything. I'm too stupid for everything. I'm so stupid. So so stupid.
 
Wiseowl

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I doubt Sue would abandon you for not enrolling in college given how you are feeling right now. It's your life and you have to do what feels right for you. :hug1:

You are not stupid. You have mental health issues that get in the way of living your life, it doesn't mean you are stupid. :hug1:
 
Lincoln1990

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I doubt Sue would abandon you for not enrolling in college given how you are feeling right now. It's your life and you have to do what feels right for you. :hug1:

You are not stupid. You have mental health issues that get in the way of living your life, it doesn't mean you are stupid. :hug1:
I just don't know what to do WiseOwl. I'm very upset. Extremely upset.
 
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I agree Linc, Sue wont abandon you, she will understand how tough things are for you and Im sure that she will continue to support you.

Dont be scared Linc, we are all here.

TT xx :hug1:
 
Wiseowl

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We are here to support you and you know we care about you. :hug1:

It's okay to feel upset. Can cry and let out some the emotion? :hug1:
 
Lincoln1990

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I'm so disappointed in myself for letting my mental illness define what I do.
 
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