At 117 meeting today my pdoc said

[Gail]

as some of you know i had a 117 meeting today, they are keeping me on 117 for now Meeting had good and bad parts will write more later
MY pdoc said and i quote

"For some people the mental health system is toxic and you are one of them"

So what am I supposed to do now???


im just so gutted right now dont know what to feel
gail

 

[Gail]

have been thinking long and hard im not taking the meds anymore have chucked them out i have had enough of the crap. some of the things that were said to me today at 117 meeting were well out of order if sectioning does me no good why do they keep sectioning me, whats the use of an 72 hour admittance plan if they say thats not wot the ward is there for I cant do this anymore i want out i just want it to end so i can go to sleep and never wake up I have told them when im suicidal but its no good they dont seem to give a shit Im not stupid i know a lot of it has to come from me but all im asking for is some extra help someway when im in crisis WHAT makes my blood boil is that since i had the dx of blpd added to my bp i have noticed a change in attitude from mental health staff it seems to be one of shes attention seeking. Im not attention seeking when i have a c** ** ****** AND **** ****** ** **** ****** AND ***** ** *** ***** ** ****** AM I. SORRY HAVING TO BE VERY CAREFUL of what i write here dont want to upset people or get kicked off

 

[messymoo]

Hi Gail Sorry to hear your having a bad time with the mental health professionals I know they can be so difficult to work with and unhelpful at times hang on in there
Take care of yourself
Messy

 

[mad as a hatter]

i,m sorry things r so bad 2 but i,ve got the same problem since i got the bpd added 2 my bp they r different there attitude stinks and yep ive bee ncalled attention seeker also it,s distroyed me someway cause i can,t get it out my head it,s upsetting but don,t let them win that,s what there looking for keep fighting the bastards all they way i hope ur ok this morning take care

 

[ixolite]

gail i know from your past posts that you are not having too good a time this year but hang on in there

one bit of advice though don't stop taking meds
i know from bitter experience that doing so just screws you up up more and whats worse then you have to crawl back to them and accept that it was a mistake so don't go there girl

try not to think of yourself as your diagnosis so much
i've have several over the years and hey i've always been the same so whats that all about
just do what works and don't do what doesn't and stick up to them as you are the only one who knows the difference between the two

i've been where you are now and i know how bad it gets but i've been better since i realised they don't care they get paid no matter what so i stopped hurting myself and decided to ignore my diagnosis and just be me
this did involve telling them that i didn't want a CPN anymore which is scary cos your on your own but when someone constantly keeps telling you things about yourself that you know are not right then i felt i was better off without the hassle

i only deal with my psychiatrist now which keeps life simple as i don't have to keep explaining myself

oh dear i'm getting carried away but what i really want to say is it gets better hey i can't get much worse sometimes !!

take care

 

[maudikie]

maudikie.

Sorry you are havig a bad time especially with staff who should know better.
Don't do anything foolish, but go back to your G/P. Write down all youhave here and ask him if he can get you a second opinion with another specialist.
I'm afraid the mental health services are in a bit of a mess at present.
Have you a relative or friend you can talk to and who is understanding. And if you get another appointment I should take them with you .
Take care. There is not enough ofit about these days. Start to write a journal of how you feel, and there is always this forum where yu can let off steam.

 

[Charlie123]

Is a 117 meeting just an English thing? Or is it in Scotland too?

 

[Gail]

117 meeting is wot you have to have after u have been on a section 3, its to do with after care dont know if its the same in scotland