- Mar 9, 2020
- United Kingdom
I’ve wrote previously of having intrusive thoughts about my boyfriend. We’ve taken a week break of not speaking because it was getting too much for the both of us. I’m starting to feel okay however whenever I think of him I become anxious. I’m thinking is it because of the thoughts, is it because I actually don’t love him and I’m not admitting it, it is avoiding him because I don’t want to feel that way? We are meant to be speaking again in a few days and I’m worried all the feeling of the thoughts will be coming back once I see him. I don’t want to be having these thoughts because before they happened we were absolutely fine. Over the past few days of not speaking, the thoughts have lessened I’d say but whenever I think of my boyfriend I become anxious. I don’t want to feel like that, he’s my best friend and is, was? I don’t know but the love of my life. My mind just can’t commit to a thought or decision.