all i have to do to feel depressed is think back on how much i could have accomplished this year. so i don't usually think about it, can't change it anyway.
so why are you suicidal? you still have loving parents, food, housing i'm guessing. this year set a LOT of us back, but we're in it together and next year will be better. if you accomplish some goals before next year you won't have to look back on december and think, hmm i could have gotten (x) accomplished in that time.
lol...it's funny you bring up watching a cheery programme - i just started watching "the office (uk)" recently and it was cracking me up. then i started watching season 2 and i felt sad for the receptionist having to watch her co-worker she likes flirt with the new girl and ricky gervais failing miserably to adapt. i was actually getting sad watching this lighthearted cheery show