Apparently I'm not important. Apparently I'm stupid to think I would be able to have help with this pain. Apparently I deserve this pain. Apparently I need to die. It's worse than ever before. I don't know how much longer I can go with this pain. I'm so hurting. This needs to stop. I went to therapy and ever since then it's been hurting really, really bad. I feel like I'm being ripped from the inside out.