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Anyone want to get off their meds?

jb5784

jb5784

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I feel my meds are holding my career back. Before taking meds, I was making over $100,000 USD a year. Now I don’t have the mental energy to go fast like I used to. I want to get off these meds and be manic because I was successful. Now I feel impotent and no one expects much of me and my future. It sucks!!!

I’ll probably stay on these meds to remain stable but I still battle with bouts of mania. I’m rarely depressed. I have Bipolar I. I just want to experience some excitement in my life instead of being bored all the time.
 
NWiddi

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I'm on meds for voice hearing (10mg Aripiprazole and 4mg Risperidone) and yes I would like to get off them and try to lose the weight I gained from them but my voice has other ideas, he keeps telling me "one day, one day!" Which means given half the chance he'll torture and torment me again like he used to before I started taking them.

May I ask what medication you're on?
 
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I miss my energy for trail running and creating/building things. But much like the five stages of grief I’ve had to go thru all five stages to get stable in my life.

In the end all of us have to chose what we can and can’t live with. That’s a personal choice no one can judge you on. Only you can make this decision. But going back to manic carries dangerous consequences.

Stable is dull, boring, but honestly I couldn’t go back to being manic again.

But I feel where you are.
 
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It’s boring but I guess I don’t have a choice. The downside to mania is a screwed up life. I’ve had to rebuild my finances at least four times. Everything moves slower but at least I know I’m safe.
 
jb5784

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I think if I set more moderate goals for myself, I will achieve some sense of happiness and have hope. High goals only lead to mania.
 
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That's quite the cocktail you're on, am I right in thinking you take the Klonopin to counter the side effects of Abilify because I used to get akathisia on high doses of Abilify, I'm down to 10mg instead of 30mg now but also on 4mg of Risperdal so I don't get side effects from either.

I've always been a little (more than little to be fair) boring and dull so I can't relate to what you're feeling there. But I'm happy on meds for life if it means no more psychosis ever again, it's just a pity I still hear a voice that isn't my own on these drugs, they quieten it down but don't seem to be able to stop it entirely.
 
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I frequently go through phases of wanting to get off my meds, although it usually ends horribly. A few years ago I went back to school to take all the undergraduate prerequisites to go to medical school, which was my end goal. When I was in college in my twenties I was not on meds and this time around I just didn’t feel as sharp. It felt like a struggle to even stay awake for all the classes, let alone do the many hours of homework. When I stopped my meds though I threw myself into everything, I went to school 5 days a week, worked 40 hours a week, and did around an additional 20 hours of volunteering a week. Ended up failing out around a semester later after being an A-B student my whole life.

It has been some time but now I am going back to school for an opticians license. This is just a two year technical degree. Part of me feels like I am admitting defeat to the disorder but I am trying to find better ways to look at it.
 
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I frequently go through phases of wanting to get off my meds, although it usually ends horribly. A few years ago I went back to school to take all the undergraduate prerequisites to go to medical school, which was my end goal. When I was in college in my twenties I was not on meds and this time around I just didn’t feel as sharp. It felt like a struggle to even stay awake for all the classes, let alone do the many hours of homework. When I stopped my meds though I threw myself into everything, I went to school 5 days a week, worked 40 hours a week, and did around an additional 20 hours of volunteering a week. Ended up failing out around a semester later after being an A-B student my whole life.

It has been some time but now I am going back to school for an opticians license. This is just a two year technical degree. Part of me feels like I am admitting defeat to the disorder but I am trying to find better ways to look at it.
I wanted to go back to school to complete my med school pre-reqs but my doctors warned against it. Three medical professionals to be exact said NO!! I felt defeat with that as well. I’m in a real estate business I inherited but I’ve struggled trying to find purpose with it. When I was manic I was making a lot of money for the business. Now I’m just living off of collected rent and not doing much with life except taking meds and going to doctor’s appointments.

I guess I have to create my own purpose in life now. It’s so hard giving a calling or life purpose up because of a mental illness. I’m in my 30’s and I see all my friends thriving in their careers. I don’t have that and feel like a loser. The only good thing is that I’m financially stable.

I want to feel like I have something I can look forward too. I’m embarrassed when dating because people ask you what you do for a living and I have no response.
 
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I wanted to go back to school to complete my med school pre-reqs but my doctors warned against it. Three medical professionals to be exact said NO!! I felt defeat with that as well. I’m in a real estate business I inherited but I’ve struggled trying to find purpose with it. When I was manic I was making a lot of money for the business. Now I’m just living off of collected rent and not doing much with life except taking meds and going to doctor’s appointments.

I guess I have to create my own purpose in life now. It’s so hard giving a calling or life purpose up because of a mental illness. I’m in my 30’s and I see all my friends thriving in their careers. I don’t have that and feel like a loser. The only good thing is that I’m financially stable.

I want to feel like I have something I can look forward too. I’m embarrassed when dating because people ask you what you do for a living and I have no response.
Maybe I should have asked my doctor first lol.

I recently lost my car and make a lot less than I used to. In the past I was a restaurant manager, at one point an owner, I worked 100 hour weeks with all sorts of crazy times. Unfortunately I just cannot do that anymore. I work until 10pm currently and my doctor told me he does not think I should work past 6pm, I am trying tracking my moods and seeing if I can pull it off. Whole point of that was to say I don’t even want to date anymore, I am just embarrassed with my life.
 
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I totally understand what you mean. When you’re working hard and making a life for yourself, you fit in like everyone else. There are things to talk about like vacations you’re going to take or what you plan on doing for Christmas. You fit in with the crowd and have a sense of belonging. Once mental illness takes it toll, isolation becomes the norm.

I got dumped by my last girlfriend because she said I had too much baggage, bipolar included. Now I don’t know how to approach the next person. I’m going to keep my bipolar a secret until I know the next person really well. I’m tired of being judged.
 
Anna38

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Im seriously considering stopping my meds, they dont help that much and i feel tired and hungry all the time even tho its not meant to be a side effect of lamictal. Therapist wants me on lithium now but im sick and tired off it all now, just want to stop meds and therapy and try to sort it myself x
 
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Im seriously considering stopping my meds, they dont help that much and i feel tired and hungry all the time even tho its not meant to be a side effect of lamictal. Therapist wants me on lithium now but im sick and tired off it all now, just want to stop meds and therapy and try to sort it myself x
Lithium is good and generally does not have a lot of side effects. Maybe give it a shot?
 
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Lithium is good and generally does not have a lot of side effects. Maybe give it a shot?
I might but think i will taper down and see how it is without them first, and if it gets bad again i will give the lithium a go 😊
 
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