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killswitchon
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Here is the deal. I was originally diagnosed two and a half years ago with a
clinical depression which was drug induced. I was put on citalopram for a
about 9 months. At some point during the depression, it evolved into
something else. I have three different diagnoses on my plate right now, from
three different psychiatrists. One believes it to be associated with anxiety
and calls it derealization. The other thought it was just depression but then
switched to psychosis when he found out the third psychiatrist thought it
was an early episode of psychosis. My symptoms are so hard to describe but
I will do my best. It is like I am not processing all the external stimuli fast
enough and it feels like everything I see visually is going by at 1.5 times the
regular speed. I know it just appears that way to me because there is
something wrong in the processing department in my brain. That is my hunch
anyway. My thoughts tend to go by faster. It feels like I am ALWAYS
thinking and can never stop. It alone is frusterating. It also feels like my
attention is more inward now rather than on the external where I want my
attention to be but because I dont process everything I am thinking more
internally. My feeling of what a normal mind is like has completely left. its
crazy. Every day feels like more of a struggle now because I am always
thinking and can never stop. I am on seroquel right now but I cant tell you if
its helping or not. It doesn't feel like it is helping. Do these symptoms sound
familiar to anybody or can anybody relate with these feelings and symptoms?
Nobody I have spoken to can truly understand what is going on so my
expectations at this point are quite low for these forums. This has taken
over my life and I feel at such a loss. I am constantly thinking about it cause
it is such an obvious feeling that I cannot escape and am always feeling. So
retarded. Any help would be appreciated guys.
clinical depression which was drug induced. I was put on citalopram for a
about 9 months. At some point during the depression, it evolved into
something else. I have three different diagnoses on my plate right now, from
three different psychiatrists. One believes it to be associated with anxiety
and calls it derealization. The other thought it was just depression but then
switched to psychosis when he found out the third psychiatrist thought it
was an early episode of psychosis. My symptoms are so hard to describe but
I will do my best. It is like I am not processing all the external stimuli fast
enough and it feels like everything I see visually is going by at 1.5 times the
regular speed. I know it just appears that way to me because there is
something wrong in the processing department in my brain. That is my hunch
anyway. My thoughts tend to go by faster. It feels like I am ALWAYS
thinking and can never stop. It alone is frusterating. It also feels like my
attention is more inward now rather than on the external where I want my
attention to be but because I dont process everything I am thinking more
internally. My feeling of what a normal mind is like has completely left. its
crazy. Every day feels like more of a struggle now because I am always
thinking and can never stop. I am on seroquel right now but I cant tell you if
its helping or not. It doesn't feel like it is helping. Do these symptoms sound
familiar to anybody or can anybody relate with these feelings and symptoms?
Nobody I have spoken to can truly understand what is going on so my
expectations at this point are quite low for these forums. This has taken
over my life and I feel at such a loss. I am constantly thinking about it cause
it is such an obvious feeling that I cannot escape and am always feeling. So
retarded. Any help would be appreciated guys.