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Anyone else with Aspergers?

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Hi,

I have Aspergers Syndrome, I'm in my late 20's and was diagnosed at a young age. I manage to mask it quite well and no one really knows about it. I'm always struggling to keep a job, and I have constant highs and lows. One minute I'll obsess about a career path then the next I'll doubt myself because I feel hopeless. So I change my mind about a lot of things regularly and wonder how seriously people take me and I don't blame them. I'm very intelligent, but I lack the motivation to stick to anything.

I've been to the doctor who has just given me meds - great.... haven't taken them yet (50mg zoloft) don't really want to rely on meds. He says it's anxiety and depression which often goes hand in hand with Aspergers. Great! Strange though, I must of been depressed for years as I'm constantly failing due to never following anything through. That or maybe I have Bi Polar?

I wish I could be a child again, not a care in the world, questioning everything, free.....

I just want to feel normal :(
 
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Hi mrblobby,
welcome to the forum :)
your post touched me. I am somehow like you.
I have labeled myself allsorts.
I know that deep down I am love.
This forum's a lovely place to be :D
 
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I am 40 now, and have done a 1yr therapy and been given a report which states (for the very first time) that I have some autistic personality traits. I have suspected this myself for years. They don't always understand.

I take things very literally and am teased for being gullible. I can be very cold when I am upset, even though generally I am affectionate, over-sensitive and a deep thinker.

If you ask me what I need, I guess I would say practical things because that would be my interpretation of the question. I would WANT more (emotionally) than I NEED (practically), but that wasn't the question, see? And I would show high levels of worry about adult things, sensitive to other people's moods. I have an IQ in the top 5% and played in the British Chess Championships as a teenager. I could think well, but could not manage emotions well. If someone made faces or groaned or left the table, my whole brain would be filled with anxieties and paranoia about what they are thinking. This would interfere with my concentration and make me lose. In exams, I did well except when I could not interpret questions.

Eg "What colour is the sky?"

I would think this is too tricky, wonder what they meant and run out of time struggling with it. My thoughts would be;

Obviously they think I will say blue
I am not going to fool for that
it is a trick question
It can be black at night
unless there is a moon
sometimes there are shadows and shades of colour
the sky is only blue as a reflection of the sea
the air is transparent
at sunset the sky can be pretty much all the colours there are
no-one can really say what colour the sky is
this question is way beyond me
I can't write any answer at all.

See how difficult it is to think logically according to a normal person's logic?
It is embarrassing and upsetting to feel like you don't understand the most simple concepts,
but frustrating when you think you are the only one who really knows the truth.
Very isolating and confusing.
 
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Above, I just copied and pasted a recent message I put on a different thread. I hope it still makes some sense!
 
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Yes I completely understand, I didn't bother to list my traits. It is best to remember that Einstein and Newton had High Functioning Autism. We are, like them, in fact superheroes ;) We are intelligent, think analytically, fast learners and think in a very abstract way, although often through rose tinted glasses if your like me.

I don't like loud noises or crowded places, but no one knows that because I don't let it affect me, on the outside. I also don't adapt well to change or office politics, and these things affect me at work. I feel awkward when standing in the street catching up with an associate I haven't seen since I last worked with them. I take things literally and don't always understand sarcasm. Sometimes I come across as rude when really I'm joking. I'm also a very sensitive and affectionate deep thinker.

Sadly there isn't a lot of help for us. I recently contacted my local Autistic Charity who offer advice and support. They were very friendly, but all she did was write down all of my concerns and said she would email me with all the information in a week. I'm clever enough to Google the answers myself so I'm not holding my breath. I would like to see a specialist regular but you have to pay £20 p/h for that. I pay my National Insurance Contributions and all I get from the doctor is handed meds.... which I paid £8 for....

I can't complain there are people far worse off and were lucky I guess.
 
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Obviously they think I will say blue
I am not going to fool for that
it is a trick question
It can be black at night
unless there is a moon
sometimes there are shadows and shades of colour
the sky is only blue as a reflection of the sea
the air is transparent
at sunset the sky can be pretty much all the colours there are
no-one can really say what colour the sky is
this question is way beyond me
I can't write any answer at all.
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Very delicate :)
 
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:) Have you heard of savant 'syndrome'?
 
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mrblobby

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No but I just looked it up. Interesting
 
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Interesting, tell me more about how it affects you. How long since your diagnosis?
 
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I've often suspected that I'm some way to the right on the autism spectrum, but I've never sought diagnosis. I took an online screening test recently and scored highly, so maybe I should.

I've posted the test here.
 
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Yes I completely understand, I didn't bother to list my traits. It is best to remember that Einstein and Newton had High Functioning Autism. We are, like them, in fact superheroes ;) We are intelligent, think analytically, fast learners and think in a very abstract way, although often through rose tinted glasses if your like me.

I don't like loud noises or crowded places, but no one knows that because I don't let it affect me, on the outside. I also don't adapt well to change or office politics, and these things affect me at work. I feel awkward when standing in the street catching up with an associate I haven't seen since I last worked with them. I take things literally and don't always understand sarcasm. Sometimes I come across as rude when really I'm joking. I'm also a very sensitive and affectionate deep thinker.
I can identify with a lot of this. When my mood was better I was able to cope, but I fell of the rails a few years ago, left my job, and cut off all of my friends. I don't know how to get my life back.
 
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