- Jun 4, 2019
The past couple nights when trying to sleep, I couldn't stop moving. Last night was on a whole different level. I kept kicking my legs in bed repeatedly and jerking my whole body trying to relieve this feeling so deep inside of me. It was like I just wanted to crawl out of my skin. I wanted to just die. I seriously considered driving myself to the hospital. My fiance tried to rub my back because that usually puts me to sleep. But I couldn't even stand him touching my skin at all. I ended up just bawling about it for awhile. If there was ever a more right time to kill myself, it was last night. I didn't know what it was until I looked it up this morning. And I don't think I can handle another night of it...