I think I'm really depressed. When I'm not in IOP from Friday to Sunday I have no structure so it's all up in the air. I went to the county college yesterday to see what classes I can take and that was good but my dreams of going to school and making a life for myself just went out the window. I keep thinking about all the bad things in my life and it's not good. I don't want to be drowning in my own shit. I can't muster up the energy to do something about it. All I have to do is go over there and pick which classes I want to take but I'm too scared/don't care anymore. Anyone else dying out there?