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Paw Print
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Sometimes I want to be manic. I want the relief of not thinking of every single consequence of every action. I am very vigilant of what might happen if I do a certain thing that most of the time it holds me back from actually enjoying something because my mind is always in overdrive.
It isn't that I am happy or that I think more of myself when I am manic, I just feel free. I am not weighted down by my own mind. I am way more likely to hurt myself though.
I think this is one of the reasons I have a hard time taking my meds all the time. I get thoughts that I should stop taking them. Part of it is me playing chicken with myself, how far can I go before I do something stupid. Part of it is that it's another form of self harm.
I just want to know if anyone feels like this.
It isn't that I am happy or that I think more of myself when I am manic, I just feel free. I am not weighted down by my own mind. I am way more likely to hurt myself though.
I think this is one of the reasons I have a hard time taking my meds all the time. I get thoughts that I should stop taking them. Part of it is me playing chicken with myself, how far can I go before I do something stupid. Part of it is that it's another form of self harm.
I just want to know if anyone feels like this.