- Aug 5, 2021
Walking home just now, nice day, looking at all the plants and flowers, insects, people driving their cars, walking their dogs... So much life going on. I feel like I am separate from it all, that I can only watch. Why do I have to be outside of it all? Why do I have to be so full of misery that I can't enjoy anything, that I can't even just be? I am a biological creature. It's not helpful to be like this. I don't want to exist like this. I want to feel like I am part of the universe and that it's ok.