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MikeYST
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Don’t know if anyone else thinks like this
couple years ago when Anthony bourdain took
His life, it really affected me .I admired him greatly. I had read a lot of his personal
And mental struggles
I was discussing it at the bar shortly after... and a man commented on how selfish bourdains act was. Especially for his family
I don’t see it that way. I know what it’s like to be so broken mentally that you feel like a complete burden to your loved ones. I’m in such a bad state right now.... I can see the fatigue on my wife’s face She’s dealing with the same financial and personal problems I am... but she has the added weight of trying to carry this horribly depressed person through her life
It has to be fucking awful... and makes me feel even worse than I already do
I want to prop her up and tell her we’ll make it through.... but I can barely get out of bed or function
I honestly believe in my heart.... that after the initial shock period of losing me.... at some point in her future it would be like a huge weight off her if I was gone.
ive seen it happen to people that have lost loved ones that were hard people to live with in some way. Eventually their lives can be so much better without the human baggage they’ve been attached to
couple years ago when Anthony bourdain took
His life, it really affected me .I admired him greatly. I had read a lot of his personal
And mental struggles
I was discussing it at the bar shortly after... and a man commented on how selfish bourdains act was. Especially for his family
I don’t see it that way. I know what it’s like to be so broken mentally that you feel like a complete burden to your loved ones. I’m in such a bad state right now.... I can see the fatigue on my wife’s face She’s dealing with the same financial and personal problems I am... but she has the added weight of trying to carry this horribly depressed person through her life
It has to be fucking awful... and makes me feel even worse than I already do
I want to prop her up and tell her we’ll make it through.... but I can barely get out of bed or function
I honestly believe in my heart.... that after the initial shock period of losing me.... at some point in her future it would be like a huge weight off her if I was gone.
ive seen it happen to people that have lost loved ones that were hard people to live with in some way. Eventually their lives can be so much better without the human baggage they’ve been attached to