- Dec 26, 2020
Hi. Yeah constant adrenaline burning through my body! It's tiring. I'm on pregabalin, propranolol, quetiapine and mirtazapine. For the 1st couple of weeks of being on the latter 2, I felt pretty good. Then kind of gone downhill a bit and that's what panics me, cos I don't want to get to where I was at the beginning of the year! That's the scary thing.I can imagine that feeling of panic is very annoying. Does it feel like an adrenaline surge? I get this, am actually experiencing it atm but it's probably a little spark of hypomania from my bipolar disorder. It is not a good feeling, it's like a nervousness you'd experience when you have an exam.
So sorry the bike ride didn't help and you couldn't switch your thought off. Are you on meds? I am on seroquel which really 'stops' my thoughts from spiraling.
The driving thing and going back to work are exciting changes, I understand that makes you nervous. Ofcourse they're positive changes but still scary!
Maybe your mind wants to distract you from these things and then goes into BDD mode. That's what happens to me sometimes. When we're obsessing over our looks we can't think about those big life changes that are ahead.
Thanks, I think you're right, the bdd is worse when I'm worrying about other stuff. I just want to know I'll be ok at work. I'm only doing one short day to start so it should be ok. I appreciate your support and advice. Thankyou for that.