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Anxiety over physical health condition - help!

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notrealname

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Hi
I don't drop in here much, but I'm really anxious about something. Wonder if anyone can help?

For once I have something to be anxious about (rather than just worrying over nothing), but I really want to stop the anxiety getting out of control.

I don't really have health anxiety until I hear doctors say the words "I have no idea what this is". THEN I have health anxiety, because I assume it either:
a) Will never go away
b) Will get worse
c) Is such a rare disease doctors don't even think of it.
d) Is a serious disease they don't think I'd have, but I do, and I'm going to die.

This time it is a rash. It started with one spot about a fortnight ago, then about ten days ago I got a heat rash style thing over my legs. Didn't worry about it at first, then it started to get sore and itchy and spread across my legs. Took it to a walk-in clinic where two nurses independently diagnosed insect bites infected with impertigo. I used the cream they gave me but ran out (and it had got worse and spread) so I went to another doctor, who told me to stop taking lamotrigine (mood stabiliser) immediately in case it was that (otherwise he had no clue what it was). He told me to go to a doc immediately if it got worse. It did, so I went to another drop-in centre. Luckily, there was a consultant there who specialises in epilepsy (lamotrigine is also an anticonvulsant) and told me straight away it wasn't a lamotrigine rash. It was pityriasis rosea - a noncontagious viral infection. Another doctor at the same drop-in confirmed this. In the meantime, the rash has spread across my legs, bottom, anus, genitals, chest, back, shoulders, arms and stomach and its sore and itchy so I go to another doctor to get something to help with the discomfort. This doctor declare every other doctor I have seen incorrect and tells me he has no idea what the rash is but it's probably bacterial, because it's too red to be pityriasis rosea. He gives me steroid cream and antibiotics.

Anyway - today, I start a new job that I have been really looking forward to. I've been feeling only slightly under the weather, so I take my 1.5hr commute to my new job, feel a bit weak when I get off the train but assume I'm just nervous. Get to the office where I feel like I'm going to throw up. Have to apologise to new boss and explain I've just taken an antibiotic and I'm feeling nauseas. She lets me sit down for a while and do some reading rather than walk around the building doing a meet and greet. But I run to the toilet to have diarrhoea then feel like energy just drains from me and get really dizzy. I wasn't sure it was anxiety anymore so I had to apologise and explain I wasn't well enough and would have to go home (less than an hour after arriving!). I was MASSIVELY embarrassed and probably embarrassed myself more by being hugely apologetic and telling everyone how embarrassed I was. They were really nice but I still worry they think I'm weird or flaky.

So - the anxiety is now two-fold. Firstly, they don't know what this and I have no idea if/when it's going to stop. Secondly, my new colleagues have got a really bad first impression of me!

By the way, if I describe my rash in google it comes up with HIV. This is why you should never use Google!

Do you think I need to be worried? How could I look at this in a way that it will seem less like the end of the world? I think I'm mostly embarrassed about work rather than anything else!
 
aleshadxcherylc

aleshadxcherylc

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Hi Notrealname
Welcome back to the foroum well done for posting.
Seems you have have had a tough time latetly and im sorry to hear that So sorry i cant advise much.
All i can suggest is you go abck to your normal GP and explain what has been happening and going on and explain your anxieties and your panic and see what they can come up with.
Are you seeing any professional about your general worries and anxieties you on any therapy?
Take care keep strong and keep talking and i hope it all gets sorted soon sorry i couldnt be of much use
Katie
xx
 
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notrealname

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Hi Katie
Thank you for your reply. My doctors know about my anxiety. I've had mental health problems for about 13 years and have been treated for most of that. Only problem is one doctor thought I had cyclothymia (mild bipolar) and that label has stuck, which means they tend to push prescription drugs rather than offer therapy. I have nothing against prescription drugs, but in my experience, they don't do much for me. The doctor i keep getting at the moment is particularly pushy and doesn't really listen to me so I try not to mention the anxiety because I don't like his attitude.
 
aleshadxcherylc

aleshadxcherylc

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Sorry that i cant suggest much but i would go back to your GP and explain to them that you feel medication wont help you anymore that you need therapy.
Keep going to different gps if you have to until you get what you need, i know you shouldnt have to shout for help its wrong but it seems its the only way we can get the help we need.
KAtie
xx
 
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