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6rofty

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Hello my name's Rob Please could i ask for some support. I have dealt with panic disorder when my daughter was born. Since she was born i have not been my self. My second place is the doctors. And they can't seem to help me. I developed a anxiety disorder. I have lived with physical sesensations of anxiety for years now. I have been on medication on and off. Sertraline, citalapram, mitazapine etc... Everything my doctor offers. Nothing has worked. So i have not been on any medication since 2 weeks before Christmas. In the long run it's just made me worse and iv developed health anxiety and ocd. I'm very sensative to body sensations and i am very intuned with my body. I feel like i am not living but just existing in pain and misery. I am on my final warning at work for attendance. I'm scared what's going to happen. I don't want to loose my home. I have tried cbt and talking therapy councillors,. Who ever i talk to about it. It just doesn't relieve any pain or symptoms. Any way i am going to type a list of my symptoms Burning numb head, numb prickly face, numb jaw- stroke symptoms!!, really warm burning temperature , prickly sensation ,twitches, eye floaters, balance problems, feel drunk 247, i live in a daze and a cloud of fog , i get palpation s, sicky feeling. I am always tired drained and exhausted.And my memory is shocking. I am losing hope. The only thing that makes me feel half normal is diazapam. But my doctor won't give me any. They don't seem to realize the pain and misery im living with on a day to day basis. I wish i had friends who could help me that suffers the same thing. Thanks for reading. Rob
 
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Hello my name's Rob Please could i ask for some support. I have dealt with panic disorder when my daughter was born. Since she was born i have not been my self. My second place is the doctors. And they can't seem to help me. I developed a anxiety disorder. I have lived with physical sesensations of anxiety for years now. I have been on medication on and off. Sertraline, citalapram, mitazapine etc... Everything my doctor offers. Nothing has worked. So i have not been on any medication since 2 weeks before Christmas. In the long run it's just made me worse and iv developed health anxiety and ocd. I'm very sensative to body sensations and i am very intuned with my body. I feel like i am not living but just existing in pain and misery. I am on my final warning at work for attendance. I'm scared what's going to happen. I don't want to loose my home. I have tried cbt and talking therapy councillors,. Who ever i talk to about it. It just doesn't relieve any pain or symptoms. Any way i am going to type a list of my symptoms Burning numb head, numb prickly face, numb jaw- stroke symptoms!!, really warm burning temperature , prickly sensation ,twitches, eye floaters, balance problems, feel drunk 247, i live in a daze and a cloud of fog , i get palpation s, sicky feeling. I am always tired drained and exhausted.And my memory is shocking. I am losing hope. The only thing that makes me feel half normal is diazapam. But my doctor won't give me any. They don't seem to realize the pain and misery im living with on a day to day basis. I wish i had friends who could help me that suffers the same thing. Thanks for reading. Rob
Hi Rob! I don't suffer from the same thing but I know someone close to me who does. Always tired, exhausted. Sleeping happy only to wake up feeling depressed and empty. I hope you get better. Try to focus and think of positive things. Everything will be alright. Just think of your daughter as your inspiration to keep going.
 
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Hello there thank you for your reply. it's getting to the point I can't stop my self crying... I went to doctors explained my situation.. and they put me on 2 mg Diazapam untill I can see a physiatrist

The first tablet was better than the second tablet. The second tablet made me tired and cranky . Should I split in half the next dose

All the best rob
 
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Hello my name's Rob Please could i ask for some support. I have dealt with panic disorder when my daughter was born. Since she was born i have not been my self. My second place is the doctors. And they can't seem to help me. I developed a anxiety disorder. I have lived with physical sesensations of anxiety for years now. I have been on medication on and off. Sertraline, citalapram, mitazapine etc... Everything my doctor offers. Nothing has worked. So i have not been on any medication since 2 weeks before Christmas. In the long run it's just made me worse and iv developed health anxiety and ocd. I'm very sensative to body sensations and i am very intuned with my body. I feel like i am not living but just existing in pain and misery. I am on my final warning at work for attendance. I'm scared what's going to happen. I don't want to loose my home. I have tried cbt and talking therapy councillors,. Who ever i talk to about it. It just doesn't relieve any pain or symptoms. Any way i am going to type a list of my symptoms Burning numb head, numb prickly face, numb jaw- stroke symptoms!!, really warm burning temperature , prickly sensation ,twitches, eye floaters, balance problems, feel drunk 247, i live in a daze and a cloud of fog , i get palpation s, sicky feeling. I am always tired drained and exhausted.And my memory is shocking. I am losing hope. The only thing that makes me feel half normal is diazapam. But my doctor won't give me any. They don't seem to realize the pain and misery im living with on a day to day basis. I wish i had friends who could help me that suffers the same thing. Thanks for reading. Rob
ji rob I'm Anna and I'm so glad I came across your post . I too suffer gad and panic I have at the moment the ringlinggnimb face tight and around my head Knut lips pins and needles in my hands the list goes on . I cry as a release . I finally went back to my gp begged for diazepam which she game me to aid respite from my feelings. My anxiety started a few months ago when my ex partner came to my house and threatened to hit me and kill me in front of my granddaughter since then I've been hyped with nerves. I start citalapram tomorrow I have a terrible reaction to fluoxetine . But I can totally Brel at everything to what you are saying and your symptoms . Hope we can soon both feel better soon
 
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I am so sorry to hear about your struggles Anna. I hope you find some relief soon also. Thank you for the comment.
Recent events has happened with me.
It's getting to point I can't walk because of jelly drunk feeling legs 247, sickness like travel sickness 247.
I went to work... And was crying Infront of everybody.
I had to ring doctors for emergency appointment. Any way story short. I got in that day.
I explained my self to the doctor. I said I can't cope and I havnt had any relief in 10 years.
Iv tried every medication the NHS offer. So I said I can't cope. The only reason why I don't kill my self is because I don't have energy to.
I said I'm not suicidal but I could very easy Go down that road.
So thank God she listened and I was in there 40 minutes. She actually engaged with what I was saying.. and could see how much of a state in.
So she has prescribed me 2 weeks of diazapam. Thank God.
She said come back in 2 weeks because she wants to monitor me.
First doctor I have seen who has actually said I need benzos.
I can now do my job!!!! See how I go
All the best. Rob

If I can help you pm me. I have 10 years of experience. Let's not suffer alone.
 
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Sounds like you have both together anxiety and depression and that is a tough combo. One or the other is bad enough.

The only thing that might help is to look into starting to change how you do things simple things like a rountine as that teaches you to do things even when you don’t FEEL like it.

Food is another thing too much junk food and soft drinks and poor sleep hygiene to name but a few all bits of the jigsaw.

oh yeah and i weaned myself off doctors as they were b useless! not probably big or grown up but hey got sick of them, and that was still pending an important feedback
 
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On a positive note. I decided to buy a push bike.. and started going on bike rides.
 
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yeah very good excellanto!! wish i could do the bike thingie but my feet not good for this no more.
 
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Aw I'm sorry to hear that. Iv just finished work. Feeling warm and wobbly on my feet. Should I take a diazapam. I had one this morning at 930 is now nearly 8pm. Doc said I could have 3 a day but I don't want to get addicted. Scared,!
 
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ah i aint one for talking meds with got some history with it shall we say. but yeah a tricky situation. for the longest time i had that stuff in the cupboard and never used it except on one occaision for a funeral. just knowing that it was there ...
 
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I am so sorry to hear about your struggles Anna. I hope you find some relief soon also. Thank you for the comment.
Recent events has happened with me.
It's getting to point I can't walk because of jelly drunk feeling legs 247, sickness like travel sickness 247.
I went to work... And was crying Infront of everybody.
I had to ring doctors for emergency appointment. Any way story short. I got in that day.
I explained my self to the doctor. I said I can't cope and I havnt had any relief in 10 years.
Iv tried every medication the NHS offer. So I said I can't cope. The only reason why I don't kill my self is because I don't have energy to.
I said I'm not suicidal but I could very easy Go down that road.
So thank God she listened and I was in there 40 minutes. She actually engaged with what I was saying.. and could see how much of a state in.
So she has prescribed me 2 weeks of diazapam. Thank God.
She said come back in 2 weeks because she wants to monitor me.
First doctor I have seen who has actually said I need benzos.
I can now do my job!!!! See how I go
All the best. Rob

If I can help you pm me. I have 10 years of experience. Let's not suffer alone.
Rob diazepam was a life saver for me . Sometimes antidepressants don't suit all . And I'd rather take one tablet and have a few days respite of normality that doped on long term medication that way works for me anyway . We sound alike I've been suffering for over 20 years on and off usually a stressful situation sets my nerves back off.
 
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Aw I'm sorry to hear that. Iv just finished work. Feeling warm and wobbly on my feet. Should I take a diazapam. I had one this morning at 930 is now nearly 8pm. Doc said I could have 3 a day but I don't want to get addicted. Scared,!
dont suffer if relaxation doesn't help . Take the dam thing x
 
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I just don't want to get addicted. I no iv only had like 5 tablets since last Friday... They are 2mg ones.. doctor said I can have up to 3 a day. I don't no why I'm suffering because I have the meds to keep me half human after all your right tho
SSRIs don't help
Meditation doesn't help
Trying to relax doesn't help
Breathing exercises doesn't help
Talking about it doesn't help
Nothing helps other than a addictive sedative.
 
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I'm on 5mg when required I took 5mg straight from getting them from chemist I was that bad with my anxiety . These tablet sales enabled me to relax enough to help me eat and drink which was much needed as I had the paramedics out the morning as I felt so dehydrated and hungry but I couldn't eat or drink for the churning stomach . I took half tablet last night I feel a bit shaken this morning but I'm trying . I don't think 2mg is high but take it don't hesitate if this helps
 
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