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Hi everyone, I'm 18 years old, male.

I really need some help to understand my feelings, what is happening and if someone experienced this.
Well, this is my story:

1st - weed

- Me and some friends decided to smoke, i didn't feel anything but sadness. Everyone was enjoying but i was just sad. I thought: "Well, this is your first time, maybe that's normal".

- Some weeks later I tried again and in the beginning I was felling really nice but suddenly everything felt different. I remember a friend talking to me and I couldn't understand, looked like some alien speech. I wasn't felling alright so I decided to take a break and rest my head (big mistake), when i "woke up" from my little nap I was spaced out, out of reality, I recognized everything but I didn't know what it was, like I knew I was a human but I didn't know what that meant. I started to realize that what I was seeing was real life and I thought I would be in that state forever and I had a panic attack ( the worst moment of life).

- My friends told that was a bad trip and accepted it, they said it was normal. But i really wanted to feel what they did, so, in February (2016) I smoked again. Same feelings of unreality but this time I didn't freak out, I was lucid that it was happening because of that. I never smoked again and I never will.



2nd - nightmares

- The week after the last time was normal, just some nightmares.

- In the following week I started to have nightmares all nights (I'm still having them but not as usually)



3rd - existential thoughts

- This is the worst part of all my experience. I always thought about everything: the universe, our world..., but one time when i was at the train, i started to have thoughts about reality:"What if nothing is real? What if the world is all in my head? What if I'm in a coma waiting to wake up?".

- After this I've been felling anxiety and depersonalization/derealization. It's so disturbing looking at everything and feeling it's fake (I know it's not).



4th - fears

-I'm afraid that I'm going crazy.

-I'm afraid that I'm developing psychosis.

-I'm afraid to start to believe in my thoughts.

-I'm afraid I'll never be the same again.





I just want to live my life, just want to feel everything again, i really want to be happy.

I never had suicidal thoughts because my goal is to be happy and live this life, i really need some advice.

I'm having this feelings for 1 month now.



Thank you all,

Regards!
 
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Hi PedOli
Welcome to the forum ! :welcome:
Im afraid i cant offer you any advice im glad i have never tried weed (otherwise id be even more screwed up!)
But i wanted to welcome you to our community.
Im sure some members will come along soon to offer some advice
Hugs
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Hi PedOli �� I know some people don't take weed well and others seem to have no problem with it,sorry you had to go through that...a friend told me that it takes 28 days to fully leave your system (he smokes it daily) so maybe things will improve for you..sorry I'm not much help,I'm new here and still trying to work the forum out...best wishes, stormy
 
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A word of advice to anyone reading this. !dont smoke weed!

I suffered with OCD and a bit of anxiety. I started smoking a bit of weed at uni. It got to the point where I was smoking it every day, although just a tiny bit (I'm a lightweight!). After a couple of years I started to get paranoid, so I stopped. 4 years on I haven't touched it but the paranoia has stayed and I've now got panic disorder. I believe it was the weed that triggered this.

Some people are just wired wrong and we can't handle anything messing with our heads.

Keep a clear head. I wish I had never touched it. I feel like it's ruined my whole life and I will never be the same again.
 
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look at me.

utter grinding sanity as long as I have my weed

Attempts to quit are shortcuts to the rubber room. Literally.

Legal drugs are a short cut to a Manic Frenzy with a side effect of severe physical reactions.

:shrug:

I have no answers OP except to Remind you you are only 18, you are male, your brain will not even begin to STOP growing for another 9 years or so.

You are possibly Legally insane like Most Teenagers. Its not your fault its a Biological fact.

Now even a slow person can figure out that layering this natural crazy with artificial crazy in the form of (insert drug of choice here) is gonna be the Fast Boat to Mental.

I got enormous relief from weed but I suffer terribly from Legal Meds. This is worsening as I get older, Improving? so don't expect your reactions to Substance A to be the same in 10 years as they are now.

Also.

At 18 you should be High on Life. Yes me and my buddies would have beer, wine, a smoke - but our lives revolved around Hanging out and Laughing, not hanging out and taking x drug.

This seems to be a New Thing. Lets get high, loaded, etc.

WHAT GOES UP, MUST COME DOWN.


Another natural law you ignore at your peril.


All the best, fwiw I think you just need to put the bong down (and mabe some of your friends) and concentrate on your school work.
The rest will take care of itself.

Best
BDU
 
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yes but what do you mean by DRUGS

do we include the drug of ethanol, as it causes more death and cost to the taxpayer than anthing else combined?

Oh no, not expensive red wine, no, that's not what we mean...

FFs a drug is a drug is a drug. Say No to Weed you also say no to Nicotine, Caffeine (bye, coffee) tannin (seeya tea) a nice glass of red (was fun while it lasted)

Or should this rather read

SAY NO TO DRUGS *but only the the ones I Judge
 
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A word of advice to anyone reading this. !dont smoke weed!

I suffered with OCD and a bit of anxiety. I started smoking a bit of weed at uni. It got to the point where I was smoking it every day, although just a tiny bit (I'm a lightweight!). After a couple of years I started to get paranoid, so I stopped. 4 years on I haven't touched it but the paranoia has stayed and I've now got panic disorder. I believe it was the weed that triggered this.

Some people are just wired wrong and we can't handle anything messing with our heads.

Keep a clear head. I wish I had never touched it. I feel like it's ruined


my whole life and I will never be the same again.

So let me get this straight

you smoked a tiny bit in uni

FOUR YEARS later you experienced paranoia and MH issues

That's like blaming Cancer on the fekkng cigarette you rolled for your dad when you were 3

Just makes No Sense.

Perhaps the indulgence in the weed was an attempt to CONTROL the unhealthy thought issues you already had...

Which got worse when you STOPPED...which is, btw, the exact same thing that has happened to me...
 
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A word of advice to anyone reading this. !dont smoke weed!

I suffered with OCD and a bit of anxiety. I started smoking a bit of weed at uni. It got to the point where I was smoking it every day, although just a tiny bit (I'm a lightweight!). After a couple of years I started to get paranoid, so I stopped. 4 years on I haven't touched it but the paranoia has stayed and I've now got panic disorder. I believe it was the weed that triggered this.

Some people are just wired wrong and we can't handle anything messing with our heads.

Keep a clear head. I wish I had never touched it. I feel like it's ruined my whole life and I will never be the same again.
I don't disagree with you in so far as modern day skunk can be very strong and provoke extreme psychological reactions in some people. However I've smoked weed for 44 years with no ill effects whatsoever.

Are you sure you aren't simply reaching out for an easily identifiable, external reason for the way you feel which enables you to ignore any interpersonal problems you have or have previously experienced?
 
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I don't disagree with you in so far as modern day skunk can be very strong and provoke extreme psychological reactions in some people. However I've smoked weed for 44 years with no ill effects whatsoever.

Are you sure you aren't simply reaching out for an easily identifiable, external reason for the way you feel which enables you to ignore any interpersonal problems you have or have previously experienced?
I reckon

I took 2 disprin in 1984 which caused my psychosis in 2015

okies...#REACH


after the Legal Hell Ive just been put through I would be suggesting weed FIRST as a treatment for OCD. sit down have a cuppa and a cone, then tell me if you feel compelled to count every noodle in the bag 3 times.

:shrug:
 
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Hi everyone, I'm 18 years old, male.

I really need some help to understand my feelings, what is happening and if someone experienced this.
Well, this is my story:

1st - weed

- Me and some friends decided to smoke, i didn't feel anything but sadness. Everyone was enjoying but i was just sad. I thought: "Well, this is your first time, maybe that's normal".

- Some weeks later I tried again and in the beginning I was felling really nice but suddenly everything felt different. I remember a friend talking to me and I couldn't understand, looked like some alien speech. I wasn't felling alright so I decided to take a break and rest my head (big mistake), when i "woke up" from my little nap I was spaced out, out of reality, I recognized everything but I didn't know what it was, like I knew I was a human but I didn't know what that meant. I started to realize that what I was seeing was real life and I thought I would be in that state forever and I had a panic attack ( the worst moment of life).

- My friends told that was a bad trip and accepted it, they said it was normal. But i really wanted to feel what they did, so, in February (2016) I smoked again. Same feelings of unreality but this time I didn't freak out, I was lucid that it was happening because of that. I never smoked again and I never will.



2nd - nightmares

- The week after the last time was normal, just some nightmares.

- In the following week I started to have nightmares all nights (I'm still having them but not as usually)



3rd - existential thoughts

- This is the worst part of all my experience. I always thought about everything: the universe, our world..., but one time when i was at the train, i started to have thoughts about reality:"What if nothing is real? What if the world is all in my head? What if I'm in a coma waiting to wake up?".

- After this I've been felling anxiety and depersonalization/derealization. It's so disturbing looking at everything and feeling it's fake (I know it's not).



4th - fears

-I'm afraid that I'm going crazy.

-I'm afraid that I'm developing psychosis.

-I'm afraid to start to believe in my thoughts.

-I'm afraid I'll never be the same again.





I just want to live my life, just want to feel everything again, i really want to be happy.

I never had suicidal thoughts because my goal is to be happy and live this life, i really need some advice.

I'm having this feelings for 1 month now.



Thank you all,

Regards!
Well, not smoking it ever again is one good step! :)

I never coped with it well at all either, nor any psychiatric medications I've tried (that for me have had much, much worse effects on the whole). Some people seem to thrive on smoking it, others don't.

I don't think it's permanently affected me in any way though & I had severe MH problems years before I ever tried it.

I don't know what good research there is on cannabis and mental health problems (where no MH problems appeared to exist before) but the fact that it seems to have independently triggered all this stuff for you is pretty awful. Not really sure what to advise? It seems unlikely to me that these sorts of problems will last for ever if they were triggered by a drug, but obviously that's total speculation...

Best Wishes
 
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We are all different and all react to weed different,some find it helps, some find it makes them paranoid and anxious,other swear it keeps them sane and they are ill off it,usually these people are the ones that have smoked it everyday for years and like the alcoholic now appears drunk if they don't drink it and sober if they do,their brains are so used to the weed they instantly backfire without it!
You do well to stay away if any signs of depression or anxiety or paranoia or any type of mental symptoms occur.
 
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Well, not smoking it ever again is one good step! :)
I never coped with it well at all either, nor any psychiatric medications I've tried (that for me have had much, much worse effects on the whole). Some people seem to thrive on smoking it, others don't.

I don't think it's permanently affected me in any way though & I had severe MH problems years before I ever tried it.

I don't know what good research there is on cannabis and mental health problems (where no MH problems appeared to exist before) but the fact that it seems to have independently triggered all this stuff for you is pretty awful. Not really sure what to advise? It seems unlikely to me that these sorts of problems will last for ever if they were triggered by a drug, but obviously that's total speculation...

Best Wishes
i would be interested in any statistics you have to support this, being that the AMA is currently facing a huge and growing Class Action for withholding this wonder drug.
 
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I can assure you that you are not going crazy. This is a symptom of anxiety. It makes you create your own reality in your head about what reality is but in fact your reality is not reality at all. It is scary but you have not crossed the point of no return.

About derealization; this is also a symptom of anxiety. Basically it has been explained that it is anxiety overload and that is your bodies way of going into protective mode. I have had derealization and have done tons of research on it because it is very frightening. the majority of people who experience it have it from smoking weed and the majority of those people worry about having it for the rest of their lives. So it is normal to feel this way as I was worried mine would never get better. But it does go away. calming your anxiety is the best way to get rid of it. Everybody has their own methods for helping their anxiety so just bear it out and you will figure out what works for you. For me what helped the most was coming to the realization my symptoms were only symptoms of worry and not indicating that I was dying or permanently damaged. Time was the best healer for me as it gave me a big picture view of what was going on. It sucks but that is the truth.

I never took medication for anxiety and most of the people I know who recovered from this the best didnt take medication for it either. I am not against medicine but some people are just more sensitive to those types so it would be better to stay away from all psychotropics (from caffeine to molly) if you fall in to that category.

What is your diet like? for your brain to heal you need to make sure you are giving it the nutrients it needs so it can return to its normal functioning state
 
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its always the way

Not saying YOU OP but ive heard it too many times before

He went crazy smoking weed <<<<<never a single word about the glue he was sniffing, the ice he was inhaling, the nicotine he puntures his brain with 50 times a day, the ethanol and caffeine and sugar he may/may not be using to induce (whatever)

oh yes its the weed...of course it is

FACT: not one ER anywhere in the world to date has reported one death due to weed.

People even die from peanuts so arguably smoking weed has a Protective Factor that keeps one out of the ER even if it is merely bcause they are on their sofa watching Friends

Based on these Statistics (which happen to be true) there is a Very Strong Case to pipe THC into the water supply, the better to save ER dollars by keeping people Happy and At Home.
 
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Hello m8,
Thank you for your help, it's good to know that i'm not alone. Derealization is fading away and it feels awesome. Right now its just a lot of worries and fears. I think I'm getting better but this experience changed my mind forever, I will never think the same way I did before.

Regards!
 
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yes but what do you mean by DRUGS

do we include the drug of ethanol, as it causes more death and cost to the taxpayer than anthing else combined?

Oh no, not expensive red wine, no, that's not what we mean...

FFs a drug is a drug is a drug. Say No to Weed you also say no to Nicotine, Caffeine (bye, coffee) tannin (seeya tea) a nice glass of red (was fun while it lasted)

Or should this rather read

SAY NO TO DRUGS *but only the the ones I Judge
i consider myself to be over 14 years clean/sober & in recovery from addiction/alcoholism. Despite the odd social drink & slip - have smoked cannabis 3 times, & been drunk around 7 times in 14 years.

How strict do we get with the definition of addiction? i smoke a natural tobacco, drink tea & coffee, am on a low dose of neuroleptic medication for a severe mental health condition & take lorazepam & valium very occasionally, & the odd pain killer, as PRN. All that is a very far cry from daily heavy cocaine use in my early/mid 20's, handfuls of LSD, E's, Mushrooms, ketamine, speed, popers, & all manor of other stuff, as well as very heavy daily drinking/cannabis smoking - the last few years in addiction smoking a quarter of skunk a day.

i'd consider in ways that i've made remarkable progress & a miraculous recovery.

i do consider addiction to be at a deeper level of thoughts, feelings, emotions & reactions - that drug/substance misuse (& behaviours) is a symptom of a far deeper dilemma/issue. It's the relationship to using substances (& certain behaviours) to change the way that we feel that is the issue. Recovery/healing from it all isn't a case of 'simple' abstinence/sobriety - But rather working towards a transformation of the self, & resolving/arresting the underlying condition/dilemma.
 
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i consider myself to be over 14 years clean/sober & in recovery from addiction/alcoholism. Despite the odd social drink & slip - have smoked cannabis 3 times, & been drunk around 7 times in 14 years.

How strict do we get with the definition of addiction? i smoke a natural tobacco, drink tea & coffee, am on a low dose of neuroleptic medication for a severe mental health condition & take lorazepam & valium very occasionally, & the odd pain killer, as PRN. All that is a very far cry from daily heavy cocaine use in my early/mid 20's, handfuls of LSD, E's, Mushrooms, ketamine, speed, popers, & all manor of other stuff, as well as very heavy daily drinking/cannabis smoking - the last few years in addiction smoking a quarter of skunk a day.

i'd consider in ways that i've made remarkable progress & a miraculous recovery.

i do consider addiction to be at a deeper level of thoughts, feelings, emotions & reactions - that drug/substance misuse (& behaviours) is a symptom of a far deeper dilemma/issue. It's the relationship to using substances (& certain behaviours) to change the way that we feel that is the issue. Recovery/healing from it all isn't a case of 'simple' abstinence/sobriety - But rather working towards a transformation of the self, & resolving/arresting the underlying condition/dilemma.
CPU = it depends ENTIRELY on the Shrink

I have now a suggested dx of Substance Abuse.

The only substance I have ever abused is MJ. I only drink 2-3 coffees a day because the caffeine makes me physically ill.

I don't drink alcohol much because

1. my dad was an alchy and I have a long term Fear
2. it is for Good Times which have been rare lately

I don't smoke cigarettes nor sit down to a Cuban Cigar, fap myself raw to porn, abuse my kids, abuse the voluminous amounts of valium everyone keeps throwing at me (I have enough here to kill a horse)

Yet, I get Substance Abuse Disorder because when asked how much weed I would smoke if given a choice, my answer was

HOW MUCH YA GOT??? :D

possibly not the smartest reply but weed remains the ONLY substance that brings me clarity and calm without side effects, and the best psychs in the fekkn state can only shrug their shoulders at both my dx and Treament for it, most of which seems actually physically toxic to me.

So. Basically = you get dx with Substance Abuse IF THEY SAY SO.

:shrug:

like so much else in MH, its like playing chess in the dark.
 

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