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RobertH
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Hey, my name is Robert. I'm 17 and turning 18 in less than a month. I'm new to this forum and I'm not sure if i'm posting this in the right section so please advise me otherwise or move it.
I feel like I'm losing it but I think (hoping) it is anxiety rather than some serious mental illness. I started feeling like this 6 days ago, well that's when i think it started, that's when i know i felt unwell anyway but i wasn't really panicky.. i just felt like i was sick; I had extreme fatigue. It has now progressed to intense worrying of becoming insane or already insane and i'm literally really scared and I just can't stop worrying about it. A bit over a week ago before I started feeling like this I did have marijuana, it was a very small amount (like 2 breathes in from a bong) but i had the most horrifying traumatic trip which could be related to this. It felt like i was trapped and in another world; i felt derealisation and depersonalisation and that's what i have been feeling like a bit too recently. I have done marijuana about 3 or 4 time before then but it never really hit me much, no trips or anything like that, i was just happy or scared. The 9 or so days after the trip i felt like my own self but now i don't and i'm just really scared of everything and people, even family. I feel like a different person recently because of this and it's a really scary feeling and reading about all these mental illnesses on the internet just makes it worse i think. I try to keep telling myself that i'm fine and that it's just anxiety when i start thinking those irrational thoughts. I also feel extremely fatigued and it feels like my head is buzzing tonight and i feel slight dizziness when i walk around, i might have a headache or migraine. Last night i thought i had a tumor or that there was a bug inside my head eating my brain :\. It's also very hard for me to concentrate or remember things unless i try really hard. I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow and that's scarying me.. i keep thinking It'll turn out that i'm crazy. I just need someone to really comfort me and someone to tell me that i'm not insane. I also feel depressed. I have no idea how i'm going to get to sleep tonight.. last night was pretty hard as i went to bed at like 9pm, that is really early for me but i was very tired. Initially i was worrying but i somehow feel asleep but only to wake up again at 4 in the morning after a dream which wasn't that scary really. Then when i was trying to go back to sleep at 4am it was quite hard i had to put all these rational thoughts into my head and tell myself i was okay and it worked, which was strange because i felt my real self again and i was happy but that did not last long.. anyway i'm babbling on here but i did get back to sleep and woke up at 9am feeling normal at first but then as soon as i remembered about my condition i started worrying again - i also noticed a new symptom in the morning which was loss of appetite because i made myself a sandwich took a couple of bites and didn't feel like eating the rest (i'm usually a pig when it comes to eating - it will be gone before i realise that i've finished eating it already and wonder where my food had gone). Please can someone tell me what they think it is and comfort me, this is freaking me out. I just want to feel normal again.
I feel like I'm losing it but I think (hoping) it is anxiety rather than some serious mental illness. I started feeling like this 6 days ago, well that's when i think it started, that's when i know i felt unwell anyway but i wasn't really panicky.. i just felt like i was sick; I had extreme fatigue. It has now progressed to intense worrying of becoming insane or already insane and i'm literally really scared and I just can't stop worrying about it. A bit over a week ago before I started feeling like this I did have marijuana, it was a very small amount (like 2 breathes in from a bong) but i had the most horrifying traumatic trip which could be related to this. It felt like i was trapped and in another world; i felt derealisation and depersonalisation and that's what i have been feeling like a bit too recently. I have done marijuana about 3 or 4 time before then but it never really hit me much, no trips or anything like that, i was just happy or scared. The 9 or so days after the trip i felt like my own self but now i don't and i'm just really scared of everything and people, even family. I feel like a different person recently because of this and it's a really scary feeling and reading about all these mental illnesses on the internet just makes it worse i think. I try to keep telling myself that i'm fine and that it's just anxiety when i start thinking those irrational thoughts. I also feel extremely fatigued and it feels like my head is buzzing tonight and i feel slight dizziness when i walk around, i might have a headache or migraine. Last night i thought i had a tumor or that there was a bug inside my head eating my brain :\. It's also very hard for me to concentrate or remember things unless i try really hard. I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow and that's scarying me.. i keep thinking It'll turn out that i'm crazy. I just need someone to really comfort me and someone to tell me that i'm not insane. I also feel depressed. I have no idea how i'm going to get to sleep tonight.. last night was pretty hard as i went to bed at like 9pm, that is really early for me but i was very tired. Initially i was worrying but i somehow feel asleep but only to wake up again at 4 in the morning after a dream which wasn't that scary really. Then when i was trying to go back to sleep at 4am it was quite hard i had to put all these rational thoughts into my head and tell myself i was okay and it worked, which was strange because i felt my real self again and i was happy but that did not last long.. anyway i'm babbling on here but i did get back to sleep and woke up at 9am feeling normal at first but then as soon as i remembered about my condition i started worrying again - i also noticed a new symptom in the morning which was loss of appetite because i made myself a sandwich took a couple of bites and didn't feel like eating the rest (i'm usually a pig when it comes to eating - it will be gone before i realise that i've finished eating it already and wonder where my food had gone). Please can someone tell me what they think it is and comfort me, this is freaking me out. I just want to feel normal again.