This really helped me understand my condition better, although I wish it helped my condition in general. I have terrible anxiety about my future prospects, although sometimes I think it is tied in with paranoia that nothing will every go my way and that people are conspiring against me. It is mostly just an inherent doubt in my day to day activities. I feel like it is taking over my life, i can't have healthy and normal relationships because my anxiety prevents me from having trust. Additionally, the absence of anything brings me a considerable void of loneliness which I don't understand. I see my friends enjoy their time alone and their productivity and I become so envious. I feel so consumed in my own mind. I think I am anxious, which then creates my depression for my existence, what can I do?