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Anxiety and depression making a comeback!

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Cookiesprinkle26

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I've struggled with anxiety and depression all of my life. My anxiety shifts from one "genre" to another dependent upon the time of my life. I let my house get in a terrible state sometimes and it makes me feel guilty for my child. Like I can't provide a perfectly clean home. What is wrong with me? I honestly try I even bought a special book about tidying by a Japanese life coach. Sometimes I feel so demotivated and low I sit and do nothing for a long time, or I let my child watch TV and so as he pleases. I feel like an awful parent. Then I will have "up" days, where I clean, my son has balanced and healthy meals, we go to the park etc etc I'm a single parent and go to university and he goes to nursery 3 days a week. My mum who lives far away will take him for his holidays. His father will see him for one day a year. I recall a time where I loved being a parent and would do everything "right" Now I have fun sometimes but mostly in miserable. In fact I'm miserable when he is away too and I miss him. I've been on meds and had counceilling and I don't know where else to turn. I can't get out of this low mood. No matter how hard I talk to myself and snap myself out of it, it always comes back. I'm sick of this cycle I want to change.
 
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calypso

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Hiya

I think you sound like many single parents and my heart goes out to you. I had a partner and still found bringing up my two hard, hard work. Do you think that some therapy might help you to learn about your mind's way of thinking and challenge that with new techniques. I don't think CBT is good for everything but it might suit you with your needs. I think its preferable to medication personally, but that is your choice. I can't diagnose you, no-one can on a forum, but you might benefit from a chat to your doc and see what he/she thinks.
 
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