Hi all
Wasn't sure where to post this, here or eating disorder place, but it's anxiety rooted so decided here. The past 6 months I've developed a real fear of eating, which is linked to my anxiety about vomiting. I've always been wary of vomiting and stuff but recently it's taking over my life. I don't go out really, and when I do I am constantly thinking about 'omg what if I'm sick'. I wake up a lot in the night feeling sick. It's affecting my social relations with people, as I'm constantly cancelling plans because I'm feeling sick and panicking. I know it's normal to be scared of being sick but this is on a different level, I'm letting it rule my life. I used to love food, but now I barely eat, and when I do I worry and end up feeling very sick afterwards. My mentor at university is worried I'm developing an eating disorder, but I'm not worried about my weight, I'm just worried that I'm going to be sick after eating, and ultimately I don't eat. I've had GAD and depression for a while now, I take anti-anxiety meds daily and I've seen a lot of counsellers over the years (I've even tried hypnotherapy).
Honestly, I don't know what I'm looking for here, maybe just to find others like me or if someone has any coping strategies that they've found helped them in the past. It's really getting me down at this point, I'm 19 years old and supposed to be living my life but I'm too scared to leave my room.
I am seeing a stomach specialist currently as I was having other symptons which he is putting down to IBS, the problem is they then dismiss me after giving me that verdict. I have tried SO many different diets (low-FODMAP, dairy and gluten free etc) and nothing works, which is why I think that this nausea I feel after eating is my anxiety.
Wasn't sure where to post this, here or eating disorder place, but it's anxiety rooted so decided here. The past 6 months I've developed a real fear of eating, which is linked to my anxiety about vomiting. I've always been wary of vomiting and stuff but recently it's taking over my life. I don't go out really, and when I do I am constantly thinking about 'omg what if I'm sick'. I wake up a lot in the night feeling sick. It's affecting my social relations with people, as I'm constantly cancelling plans because I'm feeling sick and panicking. I know it's normal to be scared of being sick but this is on a different level, I'm letting it rule my life. I used to love food, but now I barely eat, and when I do I worry and end up feeling very sick afterwards. My mentor at university is worried I'm developing an eating disorder, but I'm not worried about my weight, I'm just worried that I'm going to be sick after eating, and ultimately I don't eat. I've had GAD and depression for a while now, I take anti-anxiety meds daily and I've seen a lot of counsellers over the years (I've even tried hypnotherapy).
Honestly, I don't know what I'm looking for here, maybe just to find others like me or if someone has any coping strategies that they've found helped them in the past. It's really getting me down at this point, I'm 19 years old and supposed to be living my life but I'm too scared to leave my room.
I am seeing a stomach specialist currently as I was having other symptons which he is putting down to IBS, the problem is they then dismiss me after giving me that verdict. I have tried SO many different diets (low-FODMAP, dairy and gluten free etc) and nothing works, which is why I think that this nausea I feel after eating is my anxiety.
