- Jul 7, 2017
Eating has become such a chore and a game of restriction. I have had a bad ED for a few years, severe yoyo dieting. Now every time I eat I'm literally never satisfied. Eating is just a tease for me so I try to eat as fast as I can because eating slowly makes it worse. After a two week binge eating 'normally' does not even come close to satiation but I have no choice unless I want to gain weight. I've tried everything under the sky, eating healthier, eating filling foods and even allowing myself to binge every once in awhile but nothing helps. I've pretty much learned to deal with feeling hungry to borderline starved all the damn time but it really gets to me sometimes. I wish I could just eat like a normal person, eat a normal amount and be filled for x amount of hours and I've tried so hard to train myself but nothing is helping. Its so frustrating. One thing that really flusters me is constantly seeing other people enjoy food, hearing people chew and seeing food all the time in my house. My mom leaves delicious snacks out everywhere so that doesn't help at all either.