- Mar 20, 2019
- Scotland, United Kingdom
Firstly thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this and respond, im 31 years old and since december this year I have been suffering physical symptoms which initially I believe to be medical however as time goes on I'm beginning to think it's anxiaty and depression related. It started with a stitch like feeling I had in my abdoman, I then went on to develop the flu or cold it was going about at work, however over christmas this flu/cold disappeared and the stitch feeling turned into major pain on my left abdoman, needless to say i googled my symptoms and came up with bowel and colon cancer, I panicked reading this, I seen my doctor who organised ultra sound which came back clear and a colonoscopy which would be 5 weeks away, during this 5 weeks I became obsessed with this pain and kept googling and using sites to diagnose, I started to get a pain in my back and once again googled my symptoms and pancreatic cancer came up, once again I became obsessed by this and turned from bowel stuff to pancreatic, I should state for years I have had pale floating stools which is a symtom of pancreatic issues, I also had stool test which showed inflammation in my stool, during this time I paid to see a Gastroentorologist about how I was feeling he suspected it was post viral and the symptoms I was suffering were just that, during this time I was in and out of a and e with pain and had countless blood tests done which all came back fine apart from one time where my liver was slightly abnormal however this has apparently went back to normal, again this was something I obsessed over why was this abnormal, I eventually had the colonoscopy which showed nothing but again cause I had convinced myself I had pancreatic cancer I didn't think it would, again in this time I have had almost daily trips to a and e with pain, I paid for a ct scan with a contrast dye as I was told this would show the pancreas up best I had this done and no issues where found, I also had another ct scan with contrast through the nhs 4 weeks later and was sure something would show as when i was the machine I was feeling very ill, again results came back with nothing although there was a haziness of the mesntry fatty tissue that supplies the blood vessels to the intestine again this worries me as it didn't show on the first scan but I've been told this can't be causing my symptoms, I have repeated the stool test and the inflammation found has came down to a normal level, again because of pain being felt I again took to Google and pancreatic sites and came across a few stories where the tumour wasn't found on ct scans this sent me into panick overdrive, I also read up more about symptoms and not only was left side abdominal pain and back pain one pain in the middle of the stomach was also another, well low and behold I developed pain below my sternum and was having trouble breathing again more trips to a and e for no issues to be flagged up and trips to my gp with no real avail, however my gp started to ask the questions of is everything okay at home, any stress? I was rather defencive when this was asked as I felt they were giving up trying to find out what was going on, I said I didn't have any stress at home which is a lie as I have had financial issues which have defiantly caused stress, also all the googling had defiantly caused stress and anxiaty, so now I am 3 and half months into my ordeal and no answers medically, I have lost lots of weight I was 124kg so had lots of weight to loose but now I am 114kg so 10kg lost in this time, I have also started muscle twitching all over especially in my feet something I have experienced before, 5 years ago I developed muscle twitching out the blue shock horror I googled this and convinced myself I had als as it was one of the symptoms I spent alot of money to find out that this wasn't the case but I stressed over it and eventually gave myself chronic fatigue, during that time afterwards I put on alot of weight and haven't been the same person, this episode in having in no way started the same as before but now I have the twitching in now thinking is it related, I have also had left sided headache and pressure behind my left eye for a few weeks now, I'm struggling to sleep, 20 mins at a time and I'm not eating whatsoever toast and odd bannana which is not good and alarming as I used to be someone who loved food, I'm in A place where my gp thinks it is pretty much anxiaty causing my issues and as I have been In a and e alot they seem to be thinking the same, I'm finding it very difficult to accept due to the very real symptoms I am suffering but each doctor tells me I have had so much testing that the likelihood of it being something is so small, for me the pains and weight loss are a huge worry I've been prescribed anxiaty meds which I've started, I realise I have been obsessed with self diagnosing but so far blood tests, ultra sound, 2 x ct abdominal scans, colonoscopy have found nothing all of which each doctor is saying is extremely reasurring, I haven't been out of bed due to the pain and suffering so am alone with my thoughts alot, if I scratch my leg these days I question what that could be, I'm in A dark place just now and I'm hoping that someone recognises similarities to what I'm going through and can maybe she'd some light on my experience, I thank anyone who responds and takes time to read.