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Another Mole Scare

NervyTwo

NervyTwo

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I've long had worries about my physical health, and one of my biggest worries has been malignant melanoma.

For around 3 years, from around 2011 -2014 I was obsessed with my moles, especially on my face. I was constantly looking at them in the mirror, feeling them, even taking photos of them. I was so paranoid I even went so far as to wrap one large, ugly specimen in paper and cellotape to stop myself looking at it every half hour (fortunately it was on my side so I could wear my "bandage" without anyone knowing).

Well for the last year or so I've been able to put that unhappy episode behind me (mostly), but now there's a spot on my neck that's worrying me. My rational, logical brain knows it's just a spot. I've had them like that before and I know - I KNOW! - it's harmless. But I can't stop worrying about it. It's just so frustrating! It's like there's a bug in my head that just won't go away, constantly nibbling away at me to "check it! Go on, check it once more. Do it! Do it! Do it!".

ARRGHHH.

I'm going to book an appointment with the GP next week, just to put my mend at rest. But I am so fed up; I know it's just a stupid zit and I can't understand why I can't get this damn worry out of my head.

Sheesh...
 
BorderlineDownunder

BorderlineDownunder

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ok downhere you get full body scans

the sort that looks underneath the skin for the Actual Damage (I thik is a certain light source?)

ask for one of those x
 
NervyTwo

NervyTwo

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Well as I expected the "mole" isn't a mole at all, just a zit that is taking its sweet time healing up. I didn't even need to see a doctor to know that for myself, the fact that it's shrinking, has faded and becomes completely pale when I press it under a glass are all I need to know that it isn't even a mole, let alone a melanoma.

But why do I get so anxious that I can't get it out of my head? is this anxiety, or some form of obsessiveness? Maybe I should just stop looking in the mirror... :BLAH:
 
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