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Another day falls away.

HumanPerson

HumanPerson

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Another day falls away. I saw this girl at one of my sibling's sporting events. Her brilliant but shy looking smile is engrained within my memory. I even see this beauty through a pessimistic and cynical light. I fear I will never be capable of any sort of relationship ever again. The future looks so cold, bleak and alone. I have thoughts I do not want inside my own head. I question absolutely everything, and repeat particular events of the day over and over in my head till I break down in a fit of tears. I am just a burden to those left who support me, an emotional drain of all energy.

I do not know what or who I am anymore. I feel like I may have used to, however I can't point to where everything went so wrong. Everyone's words feel like nails on a chalk board. I look in the mirror and see a disfigured and unfamiliar person. I'm struggling to be grateful for what I have. I genuinely hate my life, I hate the world. Writing my thoughts out all on here help to break the loop that they are on.

It is so alone. Deeper than a social loneliness. My being is abhorrent.
 
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Zoe1

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I have been there ... and yes writing, painting,
using platforms
anything to get those feelings OUT

:hug5: 🌠
 
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