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another bad day...

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pistachio

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I've only posted once here. I don't even know what to say, i'm just feeling really bad. I don't want to bother anyone, work just sucks. Drama drama drama. And my boss doesn't help and doesn't want to hear me out. --That and the way she speaks to me about anything about this just sucks. She was really rude to me today, even when trying to explain myself, she cut me off twice so I just agreed and tried to push through the day.

I keep putting off seeing a therapist, I don't really have the money for it, but I might have to just go anyway.

Finding a different job is probably the only way for this to go away, but I'm lost at what to do. I don't want to go back to being a cashier, the line of work i'm in, theres not a lot of job openings for that, but I have no college education so i'm stuck to pretty much cashier or janitor jobs. (I don't think I could do any better, especially with the emotional problems and self confidence problems i'm dealing with right now.)

I actually tried another retail job recently, i lasted just a few days over 2 weeks before i went home and cried and never went back.

:/ this is so exhausting

thanks for listening guys <3
 
Mayflower7

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Hi,
I know how work can suck, what's key is finding the right job.
Can you do any studying and then find work that way?
Here to listen anytime, your not bothering anyone really.
Take care
 
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pistachio

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Thank you for the kind words. The job itself really isnt an issue, i actually enjoy it, but been having problems with these two girls at work, calling me names, making stuff up to my boss about me trying to get me in trouble. It's a long story and im too tired to type it all out, but long story short, thats been going on for over a year. Close to 2 now...wow...

The reason i want to leave is because for one, while it doesn't happen as often, it still does, my boss was tired of hearing about it from the 2nd or 3rd incident, and now that one of them is trying to get me in trouble, it seems as if my boss is ready to fire me for any reason.

Oh sorry, there i go again, its like any time it happens, its like im right back in the thick of it with them and i start freaking out.

But i guess i could study something, not sure what i would study tho. And i don't really have the money to study, or quit work. Even if i kept my job and studied, it would be very difficult.

Thank you again for listening to my rambling. I don't mean to. I just feel so invalidated as it is from my boss and other people. I dunno
 
SoftRain

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Im sorry and I feel bad for you.
Sometimes its hard enough to go to work, but to be bullied at work is unacceptable.
I hold your boss responsible for allowing this to continue. She sounds like a bad boss. Those girls should be put in the hot seat and gave a warning for their behavior and told bullying in the work place is not tolerated.
You could always go above her head and call corporate about the bullying allowed to go on. This could be an anonymous call.
Hugs to you. I hope it gets better.
 
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pistachio

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Thank you so much for the reply. Sometimes its just nice to have someone understand and hear you out, and that really means so much to me right now.

I thought I had a good relationship with my boss, and I used to really respect her, but the more this goes on, I've lost all respect for her, for not hearing me out at all on this, half heartedly in the beginning then straight to saying its all on me and to not bring it up anymore. Which I haven't been, unless she comes to me about something, but trying to explain or defend myself (because I'm bringing it up again) really makes her mad.

I did go to HR about it a couple of times, and haven't since the last time they had the same reaction as my boss. (which the HR person does to other people, so its not just me) It's a small company with no corporate to go to. Basically if you aren't related or on their favorite list you're just SOL on anything.

I probably will end up moving on eventually, just can't at the moment and its hard. I think what gets me so upset/mad/depressed about the entire thing is I always do good work, and I get so much done, I've had compliments from a few people i've worked with in the past that I do so much. and my boss has weekly reports on how much i've done, yet thinks the worst of me.

I know my reaction as of late to this hasn't been the best, but it hasn't been the worst either, but i'm trying emotionally and my work record speaks for itself, but it doesn't seem to matter.

Sorry for the long reply. I try to not let that out, and try to move past it, but it is hard when i haven't had any sort of closure on the subject. Thank you again for listening.
 
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