- Nov 14, 2013
- Johannesburg, South Africa
It is a bit of a catch 22.Not yet because my doctor wouldn't listen to me, but I am pretty certain I have it because several members of my family do and I show a lot of signs. I am hoping to see a doctor about it asap
The employed and lower middle classes in South Africa have no access to medical care at all. Private is too expensive and the government won’t assist you if you are employed. I don’t know if that is the case in the UK, but I need to share the below with you as a cautionary tale.
14 years ago, I had a florid psychosis that sprang out of a very severe untreated manic episode. I left work at 24 hours notice and then had no access to healthcare. The psychosis lasted for 6 months until I started hurting myself badly. There is still a bit of my tongue missing (yes it is true; bitten off and you may laugh; I do). I gracefully have virtually no memory of the period, except for a very kind policeman who handle my transferral as a ward of the state to a state hospital.
My point is. You need medication now. The job can follow. It will also be difficult to function appropriately in an interview.
I have realised over the years that we think we are great pretenders, especially when manic. The sad reality is that this is not true. People do notice that something is ”off”. I am normally considered “eccentric“ when controlled, but part of the management of my BD is that a few people close to me would insist and sometimes take me to my psychiatrist when things start slipping. I certainly never think anything is wrong, because I off course am the most intelligent, great, and charming person (etc., etc.,...) in the universe (according to me) when manic. Thsee episodes happens very often with me because I have rapid cycling BD often with mixed episodes.
If I had to try an interview and hit bottom during the interview, the interviewers will be faced with someone who struggles to remember his own name, never mind psychomotor and balance issues. I don’t think I would even be able to complete the application because of cognitive effect caused by the rapid switch to the depressive phases.
My best school friend emigrated to the UK to practice psychiatry and still is as far as I know. His sister was sectioned in the UK as a South African with a visitors visa, when she had a schizophrenic breakdown. So the state took care of her until it was safe to move her back to SA.
The people/moderators on this form from the UK will be better able to help you with organisations. The only group I know of is The Samaritans, but I don’t think they deal with access to healthcare.
Get to a doctor and get on treatment.
Lots of Love and Support