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an unlikely love

dubblemonkey

dubblemonkey

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so I am alone and my life was lucky enough to ever consider someone

after borderline pain and experience...

to ever consider someone..

and the joy the delight

just to meet her

just to see her make herself comfortable near my life like another room in my house her world not exactly my house her house she made herself comfortable near me with a similar letterbox.

she had a man but all I could see was her

and despite my complete insufficient

I watched her very carefully not creepy just a man who admired her so much I could imagine myself getting all better just to care for her

she had a real bad fall from her bike... like fucking fast

she was so broken... the road was imprinted in her face

she had to take time to even walk.

she was in so much pain

her man sure he loved her...

he took her away to fucking Spain

this same man I heard scream bullshit at her

she left at least 3 or maybe 4 tears on my shoulder

I missed her right then immediately forever

and today I receive a postcard from Spain

this man rides bicycles.....

I am making all fantasies

he might get fucking killed...on his bike

and complete his asshole arc

and all those moments I enjoyed her just being beside her.

just imagining being near her again...

sometimes throughout life

we meet someone who can cure us

and just hoping to be together without hurting them?

then we have made progress to living with ourself

I want this woman so bad I must be able to be here for her

it's quite possible that she will never be available

I will occupy an airport I will fly the biggest fucking airplane and flick away the idiots who try to stop me...

I so adore this woman she made me feel ok
 
dubblemonkey

dubblemonkey

Well-known member
Joined
Oct 21, 2014
Messages
961
Location
australia
so I am alone and my life was lucky enough to ever consider someone

after borderline pain and experience...

to ever consider someone..

and the joy the delight

just to meet her

just to see her make herself comfortable near my life like another room in my house her world not exactly my house her house she made herself comfortable near me with a similar letterbox.

she had a man but all I could see was her

and despite my complete insufficient

I watched her very carefully not creepy just a man who admired her so much I could imagine myself getting all better just to care for her

she had a real bad fall from her bike... like fucking fast

she was so broken... the road was imprinted in her face

she had to take time to even walk.

she was in so much pain

her man sure he loved her...

he took her away to fucking Spain

this same man I heard scream bullshit at her

she left at least 3 or maybe 4 tears on my shoulder

I missed her right then immediately forever

and today I receive a postcard from Spain

this man rides bicycles.....

I am making all fantasies

he might get fucking killed...on his bike

and complete his asshole arc

and all those moments I enjoyed her just being beside her.

just imagining being near her again...

sometimes throughout life

we meet someone who can cure us

and just hoping to be together without hurting them?

then we have made progress to living with ourself

I want this woman so bad I must be able to be here for her

it's quite possible that she will never be available

I will occupy an airport I will fly the biggest fucking airplane and flick away the idiots who try to stop me...

I so adore this woman she made me feel ok
 
J

Jules5

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Messages
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Location
Florida
Hi Doublemonkey How poetic your thread is-The saga of love that may never be. It is better to know love than not too. I once probably twice had love affairs in my mind. Nothing every became of them. They lasted many years though. I love you post Hugs and love Jules
 
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