That's a horrible feeling, I have felt somehing
like that before when I have been very depressed, that I wasn't a real person somehow. It is a feeling though, it is not reality. I don't think of you as being different from others on the forum but it is sad that you feel that way. Can we help somehow to make you feel less separate?
Yes, great to watch Lu Do watch it. I won't spoil it, but even ep1 shows us as close cousins!
A bit of a crush would be an understatement for me. If all women in world queueing up to marry me, she'd be in the top 3 I'd pick (I was quite jealous when she chatting to that huge bloke with tattoos on the boat! I don't normally feel these things!)
She's a rarely good TV host though (I'm quite picky) to programmes that I like, so marrying isn't part of why this was good!
I won't spoil it, but it gets better, the first bit I wasn't so interested in, but when the DNA bit started it becomes very interesting.