Today, I had an encounter with a young street punk who has been harassing me for about a year. Now I have been handling him just fine by confronting him both verbally and physically up til today. Today, I didn't say a thing to him, and he told me keep walking, and I turned around and said why you keep messin with me, and he said something that made no sense, and I turned around and walked away. What bothers me is that When I turned around, I could have gotten blind-sided by him (or the other guy that was with him) or I could have gotten something thrown at my head, and injured. I also wished that I'd have punished him for opening his mouth and speaking to me after threatening and harassing me for the first time. And lastly, I just hate what I am and what I was in the past (some easy slow 2 time failing lame) and wish that I was a tough dangerous and scary person. So... I let myself have it. Now I got two hematomas (one on each side of my face) and I am thinking about quitting my job as a form of further self punishment. Can someone give me their point of view of this situation? Am I wrong for this? I really want to better myself, but perhaps caring too much is the problem.