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Am i that stupid?

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Lilou34

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I purged again tonight twice. Had be to silent because i had people over. I KNEW that it was too late to stop the calories and i wasnt particularly stuffed but i still had to do it. I dont get it. If i know its pointless to stop weight gain why did i still do it???! I must be really lacking in brain waves 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
 
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Purging is really bad for you IMO. I've seen people do it on video and it doesn't look pretty.
 
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Is it just a habit that you have got into? Like a type of self harm?
 
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Lilou34

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Is it just a habit that you have got into? Like a type of self harm?
I dont think i self harm but i dont know why i purge. I did it again a few times today but i dont feel anything. Not good or bad. Im broken
 
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Mary26

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It may have started out as a weight loss tool or as a way to numb your feelings but it generally becomes an addiction. I suspect you did it because it's part of your routine, even an automatic response to the activity of eating and you don't feel quite right if you don't do it. You may want to consider a substitute activity after meals (that engages the senses).
 
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