
Hello513
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I have never experienced joy or euphoria before, and right now the past couple of days I have experienced it frequently despite still battling low points and suicidal ideation.
I spend a lot of time looking for work and schooling. The plan is to go back to workl part time, and then go get a degree that will help me in the path I have chosen to pursue while working part time at an entry level position.
I have connected with a lot of friends in a very short amount of time. I am on a relatively low does of medications compared to the past, but my sleep has corrected itself nicely, and I no longer get nearly as irritable and angry as I used to most of my life. This anger and irritibiliaty is a large part why the doctors lean towards a bipolar diagnoses while not ruling out major depresion one of my previous diagnoses.
Maybe its just because I have friends again, and it seems like I will be imminently getting my own place with a friend of mine moving out of my mothers house for the first time in seven years. Further my jobs counselor thinks I have a real good chance at landing a decent job, and going back to school.
So all in all my life is pretty good right now, and unlike in the past I do not have this crippling fear the psychoses will come back. I am still cautious that it might, but I am growing more confident I will never have another psychotic episode ever again.
The doctors did not seem to think I was manic, and niether did any of my friends when I asked them. Still this happiness while it does not last all day is very new to me. I have not felt this much happiness in over seven years.
Its probably just the joy of having friends again, and the imminent prospect of regaining my independence something I have craved to recapture since my first psychotic episode.
Forgive me
I spend a lot of time looking for work and schooling. The plan is to go back to workl part time, and then go get a degree that will help me in the path I have chosen to pursue while working part time at an entry level position.
I have connected with a lot of friends in a very short amount of time. I am on a relatively low does of medications compared to the past, but my sleep has corrected itself nicely, and I no longer get nearly as irritable and angry as I used to most of my life. This anger and irritibiliaty is a large part why the doctors lean towards a bipolar diagnoses while not ruling out major depresion one of my previous diagnoses.
Maybe its just because I have friends again, and it seems like I will be imminently getting my own place with a friend of mine moving out of my mothers house for the first time in seven years. Further my jobs counselor thinks I have a real good chance at landing a decent job, and going back to school.
So all in all my life is pretty good right now, and unlike in the past I do not have this crippling fear the psychoses will come back. I am still cautious that it might, but I am growing more confident I will never have another psychotic episode ever again.
The doctors did not seem to think I was manic, and niether did any of my friends when I asked them. Still this happiness while it does not last all day is very new to me. I have not felt this much happiness in over seven years.
Its probably just the joy of having friends again, and the imminent prospect of regaining my independence something I have craved to recapture since my first psychotic episode.
Forgive me