- Apr 4, 2019
When I feel super happy and I want to start eating better, going to the gym and taking care of myself, find religion/god/spirituality, I can't tell if Im just manic. I can't keep up with it, it comes in cycles with depression. I will start doing all these great things and get motivation and then it only lasts 2 or 3 weeks and become depressed and it all stops. I feel motivated again, but I don't even want to try and better myself with a diet and working out and hobbies if it's only manic and it's just going to go away in a few weeks. Im also experiencing heightened anger, violent behavior, and impulsive shopping. I desperately want to just stick to a healthy routine, I want to find a religion, lose weight, stay invested in hobbies and eat well but it only happens in cycles.