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littlemermaid28
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hi im new on here but really need some advice as I think im bi-polar but not sure?my behaviour was always wreckless as a teenager due to abuse and other things that happen and I started using drugs at 16 until around 3 months ago (i am now 29),mainly cocaine and alcohol but extacy on nights out (i stopped extacy at around 23).after a traumatic birth with my 1st child I got pnd and post traumatic stress disorder which was all only diagnosed after 9 months..i was suicidal but put on meds which helped and i got better
After becoming pregnant with my 2nd child i came off the meds and then straight back on them but double the dose after i had him...my relationship with their father also broke down and i was left on my own.
After having him I started drinking alot and taking cocaine again and would get in right states when the children were not there..i once locked my friend in so i wouldnt be alone how crazy is that!she was not happy!
I have sex with different men and strangers and phone anyone up when ive had alot to drink.I get urges to go shopping and have recently started stealing things from shops like clothes,makeup and im getting a little bit obsessed with eye drops!
Most of the latter has happened since i reduced down on my meds but have gone back up but not to what i was on...for the past few months I have been feeling really good and slightly high,really buzzing and rushing round doing things,im sure the kids think im off my head i take them shopping that much!
over the past few weeks my mood has varied I would say at times from hour to hour,feeling low then high then low and its really confusing.i get irritable and dont know what to do with myself,want to stay up all night and force myself to go to bed.Sometimes have nightmares but most of the time do sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.
I have had a cpn but have never admitted the whole truth to anyone...i feel that they will think im making it up and they wont help me for some reason.
I also get words going rnd in my head and music,sometimes when i go to bed i hear the same song as soon as I wake up or if i go to the toilet in the night.I used to hear alot of loud shouting in my head but dont get that so much now.
Has anyone any idea whats going on?
After becoming pregnant with my 2nd child i came off the meds and then straight back on them but double the dose after i had him...my relationship with their father also broke down and i was left on my own.
After having him I started drinking alot and taking cocaine again and would get in right states when the children were not there..i once locked my friend in so i wouldnt be alone how crazy is that!she was not happy!
I have sex with different men and strangers and phone anyone up when ive had alot to drink.I get urges to go shopping and have recently started stealing things from shops like clothes,makeup and im getting a little bit obsessed with eye drops!
Most of the latter has happened since i reduced down on my meds but have gone back up but not to what i was on...for the past few months I have been feeling really good and slightly high,really buzzing and rushing round doing things,im sure the kids think im off my head i take them shopping that much!
over the past few weeks my mood has varied I would say at times from hour to hour,feeling low then high then low and its really confusing.i get irritable and dont know what to do with myself,want to stay up all night and force myself to go to bed.Sometimes have nightmares but most of the time do sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.
I have had a cpn but have never admitted the whole truth to anyone...i feel that they will think im making it up and they wont help me for some reason.
I also get words going rnd in my head and music,sometimes when i go to bed i hear the same song as soon as I wake up or if i go to the toilet in the night.I used to hear alot of loud shouting in my head but dont get that so much now.
Has anyone any idea whats going on?
