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am I developing Sz/psychosis?

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Tyjj

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I'm sure there are a lot of these going around lol but idk if this is the place to put it or not but I assumed its a little fitting?

So I'm a psychology student which is really why a lot of these symptoms have been brought way more to my attention that they previously were (i just passed them off as me being weird or overly dramatic) but I don't think I have schizophrenia!!!

Let me get into explaining so; when I was younger (I'm talking like 11-12???) I used to think I was a robot?? Like I'd fully believe I was a robot bc my neck would creak and my arms would spazm sometimes and I put it down to faulty electronics or needing to be oiled and I guess I grew out of it even though I still do believe it sometimes but I'm well aware of how irrational it is.

I've been convinced for years that my parents put hidden cameras in every room in the house to spy on me and watch everything I'm doing. I also used to believe that my parents pretended to be my siblings (and that I didn't actually have siblings bc my parents were them!!!) because I tell my siblings more than I tell my parents so I thought they pretended to be them to get more information about me.

I'm convinced EVERYONE is the same people just trying to find things out about me and use it against me. I mean my Snapchat literally glitches out (I guess?) and added 2 random people and my brain went into panic mode and I had to change my passwords on everything because I just thought someone hacked me and was playing some sick game on me and they were trying to read all my messages and see what I've been saying and what I do.

I don't think people have it out for me like to hurt me but I do think they're all watching me and conspiring against me (not physically but I think they're all plotting to isolate me) which I understand is literally psychotic (in the definition of losing touch with reality).

BUT THERES MOREEE I have weird beliefs like I think I'm being followed by something that I can't see and the only way to keep it from hurting me is by playing music so if I'm alone in the house I have to have either music playing or be watching a video or a clock ticking so that it doesn't hurt me? I don't believe in ghosts or anything like that so IDEK why I believe it but I do and it's terrifying loool

I also started having minor hallucinations like nothing huge, it started out like just spiders or flies and I thought nothing of it because why would I? I just put it down to my brain expecting there to be one so it convinced me there was one. But then I hallucinated a car crash right next to the bus I was sat on and once I blinked it was gone???

Sometimes when I'm sitting with no sounds playing I hear screaming and it SOUNDS Real but obviously it isn't and it's in my head but it sounds real but I can't rly hear what they're saying its jsut loud and like??? The snakes on medusas head if that even makes sense

Idk I'm not that worried it'll develop but I don't rly wanna live with something that requires so much attention bc I'll just give up on it so, is it possible I'm developing psychosis as a result Of stress? Or something other?
 
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boudreauj4

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It definitely sounds like something is going on with you. If you can still function okay in your life and these things that sound like psychosis to me don't bother you too much then you may be all right going on the way you are. But if these things are bothersome to you and you are starting to find it hard to cope with these symptoms it might be best for you to seek professional help. If your symptoms get worse, then definitely seek help. I've heard that also if you get professional help soon at the beginning of a mental illness, the prognosis of the illness is sometimes better. Some people that go years before getting treatment have a worse outcome of their illness.
 
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schizolanza

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Are your parents aware of your experiences?
 
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schizolanza

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Stay away from drugs would be my advice. Especially as your brain is still developing. No weed please.
 
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Tyjj

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Stay away from drugs would be my advice. Especially as your brain is still developing. No weed please.
I'd never lol, tried it once or twice but not into it. Thanks for ur advice tho!!
 
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