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jimmy65
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- Dec 14, 2009
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I don't know whats wrong with me. I think most people I know would not consider for a second that I may be depressed but I think I hide it from people. I share my feelings very rarely, even with my closest friends. I dwell on negative feelings and when I have a negative thought I thinks about possible worst case scenarios over and over, in the most exreme cases this can go on intensivly for days and days and sometimes longer though not as intense. While I don't ever consider suicide in the present, It does occur to me as an option when I play out these worst case scenarios in my head.
I have recently been made redundant (these feelings were present before this and I wasn't particulary enjoying my job anyway). While I want a new job, I lack motivation to actually do anything about it. I will sometimes go to bed at night absolutely determined to be productive the next day and then the next day I do very little at best.
I used to consider myself a very social person, and in someways I still am, but I am increasingly begining to feel inferior and distant from my friends. All of my close friends are now in relationships which means I see less of them and makes me feel lonely. While I think most people would consider me above average looks wise (though this is not always as I see myself) and I know others find me a very likeable person, I've been told numerous times that I would make a nice boyfriend. I haven't been in a relationship since I was 17, I'm now in my mid 20's.
Am I suffering from depression or am I using this as an excuse as to why I am un happy with my life is?
I have recently been made redundant (these feelings were present before this and I wasn't particulary enjoying my job anyway). While I want a new job, I lack motivation to actually do anything about it. I will sometimes go to bed at night absolutely determined to be productive the next day and then the next day I do very little at best.
I used to consider myself a very social person, and in someways I still am, but I am increasingly begining to feel inferior and distant from my friends. All of my close friends are now in relationships which means I see less of them and makes me feel lonely. While I think most people would consider me above average looks wise (though this is not always as I see myself) and I know others find me a very likeable person, I've been told numerous times that I would make a nice boyfriend. I haven't been in a relationship since I was 17, I'm now in my mid 20's.
Am I suffering from depression or am I using this as an excuse as to why I am un happy with my life is?