- May 12, 2009
Hey guys i'm new and think i may be depressed. I'm 19 (20 in october) Even as i'm writing this now i feel as if i just want to well up. Almost a year ago i was in a accident where a pedestrian walked out into the road in front of me. I slammed the brakes and tried to swerve but to no avail. The man went through 2 operations to fix a broken bone (the re-done the first operation) he then died 9 days after the accident from a blood clot. I found out at the start of the year that after the police had checked everything about 6 months before, and they said that it was an accident and they had witnesses statements to say that. I am now due to go to court for careless driving (not anything to do with the man die-ing) and Since this happened i have been a lot more tired, feeling a lot more anxious and nervous about everything, I used to play my guitar every day now i'm lucky if i play it once a week and have just lost interest in most things. But now my girlfriend (the one constant in my life for the past 5 years) has changed a lot being moody and very horrible, for no apparent reason (and she's not cheating or anything). I now feel even worse as if the world is against me, and have admittedly contemplaited suicide on occasion, but then i think of my mum, dad and bro and don't think i could have them upset. Can anyone give me some advice?