Am I depressed?

[Plums]

Sorry for posting this, I bet you get this alot, but I feel confused and just don't know what to do.

I'm a 28 year old male.

I've always been a very emotional person for as long as I can remember, but 6 months ago I was taking a cocktail of painkillers and suddenly stopped, what followed was the worst 4 days of my life (I won't go into detail).

Ever since then I feel like I battle with my thoughts of being miserable, not all the time but every now and then, maybe 4 times a week on average. I also think about and crave codeine.

I feel Im ok when working long hours and can't wait to get home, but when I'm home I feel like I get lost in my thoughts of being unhappy....

I couldn't ask for a better partner and kids, I don't even know what I'm sad and miserable about but I get myself into slumps and can't snap myself out of them.

Having a bad experience coming off the pain killers makes me not want to see a doctor, I feel like they will dismiss me anyway.

Am I just being moody or what? Don't know what to do.

I've never had thoughts of suicide or anything like that.

Anyone else feel this way?

 

[calypso]

Hiya and to the forum. Being depressed isn't something to hide from others. Being "emotional" isn't anything wrong. I think you do need to see a doctor and be honest with them about everything. Coming off painkillers suddenly when you have been used to taking them, can cause all kinds of side effects in most people. I think you will find your GP has heard it all before and will take your story in his stride. Perhaps some meds to help you through the worst is an idea?

I am not someone who promotes medication for everyone or anything. I think asking yourself why you got hooked on the pain meds in the first place is something to ask yourself. If you are in a depression (and I can't diagnose on a forum), then you need some support to get through it. Have you thought of a little therapy for a while? There are all kinds out there, although I think CBT is for people in mild depression usually so not always the best on offer.

I hope others will be along to help you more.

 

[Plums]

Hi and thanks for the advice. I was on pain killers after an accident so a legitimate reason but really enjoyed that codeine feeling that comes with it.

I wouldn't know what to say to a therapist, I can't give an explanation why I feel this way, I do feel I work too much but then feel low when I am home, but I am happy with home life so it's not that I want out of a relationship or anything.

The more I think the more I confuse myself, but I just can't stop thinking.