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Am I depressed?

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S5667h

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I am in my early 20s and in my final year at uni. I haven't been feeling good for a long time now but recently iv been feeling worse. I have periods where I feel extremely low and struggle to get on with my daily life often not getting out of bed one or two days a week. During these periods I can't socialise with people and avoid my friends struggling to even have a conversation or make eye contact. After these periods I feel numb , hopeless and feel like I'm just going through the motions doing the bare minimum and having to sleep for a couple of hours every day as well as 8+ hours at night. I haven't felt excited, optimistic or truly happy for well over a year but because iv been functioning I have been telling myself I'm ok but when I look at my friends they are in relationships and socialise a lot and are enjoying life and I realise how empty my life has become as I have no interest in a relationship and am feeling very distant from my friends and family and don't really want to be alive anymore. I also feel really guilty for feeling like this because there is no reason I feel like this I have a good family and friends and am very lucky. I think my family have noticed a change in me often telling me I'm negative and miserable but iv been like this for so long they just think this is my personality now. I haven't spoken to anyone about this because I find it really difficult to talk about things and don't know who to talk to / how to say it. I am thinking about going to the doctors as a last resort but am scared if they send me away with no help I will lose my last bit of hope that I can stop feeling like this - is this depression? What should I do?
 
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I am in my early 20s and in my final year at uni. I haven't been feeling good for a long time now but recently iv been feeling worse. I have periods where I feel extremely low and struggle to get on with my daily life often not getting out of bed one or two days a week. During these periods I can't socialise with people and avoid my friends struggling to even have a conversation or make eye contact. After these periods I feel numb , hopeless and feel like I'm just going through the motions doing the bare minimum and having to sleep for a couple of hours every day as well as 8+ hours at night. I haven't felt excited, optimistic or truly happy for well over a year but because iv been functioning I have been telling myself I'm ok but when I look at my friends they are in relationships and socialise a lot and are enjoying life and I realise how empty my life has become as I have no interest in a relationship and am feeling very distant from my friends and family and don't really want to be alive anymore. I also feel really guilty for feeling like this because there is no reason I feel like this I have a good family and friends and am very lucky. I think my family have noticed a change in me often telling me I'm negative and miserable but iv been like this for so long they just think this is my personality now. I haven't spoken to anyone about this because I find it really difficult to talk about things and don't know who to talk to / how to say it. I am thinking about going to the doctors as a last resort but am scared if they send me away with no help I will lose my last bit of hope that I can stop feeling like this - is this depression? What should I do?
Yes it sounds like Depression and the treatment is the same as if it were Diabetes - go and see a good GP for a referral to a Good Specialist.

All the best - its very common

also I don't know whether you are male or female but the brain is still growing in the early 20s

you may just be having an episode that will never repeat itself.

All the best

BDU
 
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Welcome.

Universities often have free counselling. Mine did and I only waited 2 weeks. That might be all your need. I would also read up on Cognitive Behaviour Therapy and mindfulness. They are some strategies to try.
The last year at uni is always stressful and difficult.

You can always see a GP, they might prescribe medication but there are some risks.
 
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No one on here can diagnose anyone as we are not qualified and we don't have the full story.

For example a person with Schizophrenia might not be vale to socialise or get out of bed for 2 days, too.

People with Schizophrenia don't realise they have it either.


If you think you might have depression then you should trust yourself and your doctor. Just try and get though this year.


It is a very stressful time. Look after yourself.


Don't worry too much about not socialising. Surely your studies are more important.
 
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No one on here can diagnose anyone as we are not qualified and we don't have the full story.

For example a person with Schizophrenia might not be vale to socialise or get out of bed for 2 days, too.

People with Schizophrenia don't realise they have it either.


If you think you might have depression then you should trust yourself and your doctor. Just try and get though this year.


It is a very stressful time. Look after yourself.


Don't worry too much about not socialising. Surely your studies are more important.
ok you just ol dme something I did not know

I shoul dread up on schizophrenia it seems :(
 
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Thank you all! it is a relief to finally talk to someone. Yes final year is very stressful and I think I have been hiding behind this and using it as an excuse for how I have been feeling but my uni work is all I spend my time doing as it is all I can manage and gives me purpose and I don't think it is the cause of how I am feeling - in fact I think when I graduate I will be very lost and be more aware I have no life outside of this anymore. Do you have any advice on what to say to a GP as I find this so difficult to talk about and am I likely to be offered medication as an option to consider? I have thought about uni counselling services but I'm not sure I'm comfortable doing this on campus as I don't want to tell anyone or for anyone to find out. Thanks again! X
 
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Thank you all! it is a relief to finally talk to someone. Yes final year is very stressful and I think I have been hiding behind this and using it as an excuse for how I have been feeling but my uni work is all I spend my time doing as it is all I can manage and gives me purpose and I don't think it is the cause of how I am feeling - in fact I think when I graduate I will be very lost and be more aware I have no life outside of this anymore. Do you have any advice on what to say to a GP as I find this so difficult to talk about and am I likely to be offered medication as an option to consider? I have thought about uni counselling services but I'm not sure I'm comfortable doing this on campus as I don't want to tell anyone or for anyone to find out. Thanks again! X
A GP will listen but will at most only prescribe medication. If he thinks your depressed He may put you only on the list for NHS counselling but that's likely a 6-12 month wait. Anti-depressant medication will take up to 6 weeks to work. It might not even work, could make you more ill (although small risk you could become suicidal on it) and/or experience serious side effects.

Just explain to the GP how your feeling.

If your university has counselling, its really a golden opportunity. Far better than what the NHS offers. You say your functioning, that's a good sign I really would recommend you try the counselling. You don't have to tell anyone your going to counselling, I doubt anyone would care or notice. At the end of the day most of the people you know at Uni you won't know anymore after Uni. Also as you talk to the counsellor, they will suggest if a psychiatrist/medication is necessary.

Focus on completing your degree but try to gave some fun as well.
 
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My son began to have issues at about the same age

went to the GP got the ADs now No Longer Wakes Up Wanting To Die

the GP helpfully told him his Depression was genetic (thanks Doc) so its turned out to be No Biggie or even any great shame or surprise or secret - the reason I know all this is because its on Facebook All his friends struggle and they support each other. Life is tough for you young'uns :hug:
 
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Hey S5667h, obviously no one here can say for sure what is affecting you, but it does very much sound like depression to me. I know it's tough but you really shouldn't feel guilty. Depression can affect anyone, regardless of how good or bad there life is, it is a condition and not just a result of life circumstances.

I think it can be useful to explore all options, your GP may be able to help you get a better idea of what is going on but I would also give the counselling service a go. I'd try not to worry about other people seeing you there or finding out. They will be totally confidential and you would probably be surprised how many people who seem like they don't have problems use these services.

Hope you can find something to help you
 
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Go to a GP alright but don't spiral down into the depression treatment trail already. And if the GP is actually nice, he might suggest on similar lines.

This might sound like preaching but this comes from my experiences from years of battling depression, medication changes, shrink changes and ultimately I had to get up myself and take charge.

Depression is when your body is not orchestrating properly. Whether its psychological issues triggering physiological or the other way around is like the chicken and egg problem but the good thing is you can influence one with the other and it usually works better when you try influencing the psych with the physiological aspect of it.

Has your sleep cycle been haywire for months or years ? Fix it.
You put up in a hostel ? How long have you been ignoring nutrition, staying away from home ? Take multiviatmins that have Vitamin D, B6 and B12 with some Thiamine and Folic acid (these are the real culprits at root level and medicine tries curing symptoms not causes). SSRI for eg restores serotonin (symptom) but it does not address the reason why serotonin is not being produced enough in the first place (generally due to lack of aforementioned vitamins) which is the cause.

Start having green tea, two cups a day, it targets dopamine as potently as cigarettes do, its a nutritional feast for your brain.

Start taking Omega 3 supplements.

Get some sunlight.

Start going to the gym.

Cut down on tweaks like coffee, nicotine and alcohol.

All this might be something you read on every other page but trust me, the GP and their mediciation will only be able to propel you initially, but to actually heal forever...

Sorry if i bored you :) I am recovering and I want to help people.
 
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Thank you for the advice really helpful I will try to do these things. I feel like recently I'm really quickly spiralling down and losing control of everything a couple of months ago I would have easily acted on all this advice straight away but at the moment even leaving the house to buy supplements or the idea of going to the gym is so daunting. I am currently at home for Easter break and am sleeping a lot of the day. My parents keep saying I'm being lazy and avoiding work and think I'm miserable because I'm just stressed. I am only leaving the house about once a week, I'm having more suicidal thoughts than ever and comfort eating really badly and rapidly gaining weight. I partly want to go to the gp just so they can tell me what's going on and maybe give me a diagnosis of something because I'm so confused and lost. I also want to have an official name for whatever this is and maybe receive some treatment so that if I feel ready to talk to any family / friends about this which I think I need to because I'm losing all my friends and even my parents can't stand to be around me at the moment then they will believe me and not think I'm making it up or exaggerating.

Sorry for the essay just feeling very isolated and scared and it's nice to talk to someone that understands- thank you!
 
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It is okay, talk to me all you want to. You must go to a GP indeed then. Make sure you don't use recreational drugs or alcohol as a crutch. It works the way sugar works to curb hunger, bringing you crashing down harder and lower. You might have the urge to do those but stay away.

Could it be that you are doing drugs in college and its the withdrawal you are facing here at home ?

Drug use and recovery will never go hand in hand, they will both go on forever if thats the case.

The primary reason why I was on medication was the fact that my marijuana use and my shrink treatment went on in parallel and I never accepted my dependence.
 
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No I don't take any recreational drugs and iv begun avoiding alcohol over the last couple of months as it makes me feel extremely low however I only ever drank socially so this has been easy to do. The only thing I'm using as a mood booster is binge eating sugary foods. there is honestly no reason I can think of that I feel like this which is why it's so confusing - not sure if this is normal or if there is usually a trigger
 
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Relax pal, just don't make yourself feel guilty for binge eating. See I will explain how your behaviours are interrelated. Serotonin deficit give you a depression and obsessive thoughts including suicide, binge eating temporarily increases serotonin in your head so you feel better. But the catch is you will put on weight and further get depressed about it. Any step you take is a water park slide that brings you crashing down :|

Get to the doc asap. The sooner you seek help, the shorter your healing period would be, its like fixing a leaking fuel tank, patch it asap to minimize fuel loss.
 
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