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Am I depressed or something else

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Brady

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Wow I'm really not sure what I'm meant to say but I'll give it a bash. Basically I'm 31 I've no wife no kids. Live alone no pets. In the past I've been back and forth to the doctors since 2008 were they said I have depression. I've had several different medications which still to this day haven't changed the way I view my life. I feel like my life is an utter waste of my time and everybody else's. I don't find enjoyment in anything. I hung myself unsuccessfully as my friend found me in 2010 and put a stop to it. I have a good job I work out a lot at the gym so I look good so I don't really understand why I still feel this way after several years. I had a good upbringing wasn't bullied or anything like that I just hate my life. I wish I was no longer here and I don't know what to do about it.

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misssadness

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Hello Brady and welcome to the forum. I am so sorry you tried to end your life. You must have been feeling really desperate. It can take time to find the right medication so it is worth trying different ones but maybe therapy would be more beneficial for you? It would give you a chance to discuss how you feel and get to the root of it all.
 
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Brady

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I've been offered therapy by my doctor and to be honest I don't see how that would help as I usually just sit in silence with my doctor. I found the medication I was using was making me like a zombie and not able to function. I was using fluoxetine and trazadone. I've also had citalapram years ago.
 
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misssadness

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If the therapist is a good one they will ask you questions and prompt you to talk. It can be difficult at first to open up but it does get easier. I have found therapy has helped me to understand the reasons I struggle and that has been a big help for me.

Many medications can have that horrid zombie like feeling. I would ask for another. I know you have tried three but there are so many more out there.
 
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NickStokes

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Depression is an illness. No matter what you do, it still may resurface. However, it is good that you have recognized it. It is a big step forward!
 
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Crazy Lady In Stanton

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You are not a waste of time. There is someone out there who needs you. In addition to trying new meds, have you thought of volunteering? Or adopting an animal from a shelter? You are needed more than you realize.
 
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