am i depressed or lazy

[deanocas]

i dont know whats wrong with me. all i do is lay in bed and the only time i get out of bed is to daydream. i pace back and forth and talk to myself while listening to music. i have so many assessments to do and its my final year of highschool yet i have no motivation to do anything i have nothing to look forward to and the course im applying for isnt what i want to do because i dont like anything and i dont see myself working at all i put off all my work and lay in bed all day and im not sure whether this is me being lazy and faking my sadness. i just want to live in my daydreams and in my daydreams ive created a perfect family that is entirely different from my own and ive started slowly preferring them over my own family and it makes me feel guilty and ungrateful (im not delusional i know they dont exist) and makes me feel even worse ive gained so much weight from overeating and i hate my body but i cant stop eating even though i hate eating. i feel like im never ever getting anywhere in life with my poor work ethic and lack of self discipline and it makes me feel like a failure
i jusr wanted to get this off my chest

 

[JessisMe]

Hi there so sorry to hear you are in a bit of a funk these days. It’s hard to know whether your lack of energy is coming from depression or laziness/apathy. Maybe it’s a little bit of both? When our own lives fall short of our own ideals or expectations it can become easy to wish for something different as you do with your family. However it is important to keep in mind your responsibilities and your obligations. Regardless of how you feel there is an independent adult world that you are growing into. It’s important that you push yourself to put in effort where effort is needed so that you don’t fall behind. This is how you give yourself the best possible chances with things. Regardless of our mental health diagnoses we all have to strive to meet the demands of everyday living. Everyone has a job to do and making sure you get your work done is a part of this. Please do try to focus and push yourself a little. If you think it might help you may be able to speak with a school counselor about the struggles you are experiencing. Sometimes having a little support can make a big difference. xo, j

 

[treasurebox]

Signs of depression are:
1. Losing of interest in things
2. Anxiety
3. Hopeless outlook
4. Increased fatigue and sleep problems
5. Changes in appetite and weight
6. Uncontrollable emotions
7. Looking at death
8. Does not care about personal hygeine like taking a bath.

Create happy moments because happiness is a choice and you were created to be happy.

 

[deanocas]

Thank you for replying, I wasn’t expecting anyone to actually reply. I just feel like it’s so futile. I’m going into a degree I don’t really want to do and it just puts me off. I don’t really have a passion or knack for anything and I just don’t know what I want to do with my life. I know I’m making excuses but I just don’t know how to get my life back on track because I feel so stuck.

 

[deanocas]

Hi there so sorry to hear you are in a bit of a funk these days. It’s hard to know whether your lack of energy is coming from depression or laziness/apathy. Maybe it’s a little bit of both? When our own lives fall short of our own ideals or expectations it can become easy to wish for something different as you do with your family. However it is important to keep in mind your responsibilities and your obligations. Regardless of how you feel there is an independent adult world that you are growing into. It’s important that you push yourself to put in effort where effort is needed so that you don’t fall behind. This is how you give yourself the best possible chances with things. Regardless of our mental health diagnoses we all have to strive to meet the demands of everyday living. Everyone has a job to do and making sure you get your work done is a part of this. Please do try to focus and push yourself a little. If you think it might help you may be able to speak with a school counselor about the struggles you are experiencing. Sometimes having a little support can make a big difference. xo, j

Thank you for replying, I wasn’t expecting anyone to actually reply. I just feel like it’s so futile. I’m going into a degree I don’t really want to do and it just puts me off. I don’t really have a passion or knack for anything and I just don’t know what I want to do with my life. I know I’m making excuses but I just don’t know how to get my life back on track because I feel so stuck. Again, thank you

 

[JessisMe]

Thank you for replying, I wasn’t expecting anyone to actually reply. I just feel like it’s so futile. I’m going into a degree I don’t really want to do and it just puts me off. I don’t really have a passion or knack for anything and I just don’t know what I want to do with my life. I know I’m making excuses but I just don’t know how to get my life back on track because I feel so stuck. Again, thank you

I can definitely understand how it would be hard to find motivation when you aren’t invested in what you are going to be getting involved with. Why are you getting into a program that doesn’t interest you?

 

[Zoe1]

deanocas

you are just beating yourself up actually
the passion will come
when you learn to be better to yourself

 

[ht46]

I stopped making an effort school as well in my teens due learning differculties I failed everything so why make one. If you're able to pass some exams and you have a degree lined up I highly recommend based on my own experience be a good student for the next few years so you pass it will make you're life a whole lot easier in the future the earlier you start a career any career the better you don't need to be passionate about it it just makes life easier. My advice anyway.

 

[MoonShade]

I can understand getting depressed and not putting in effort if you're not going to do something you are passionate about, but maybe you can try journaling about how you see yourself in the future and what you like doing? When I had this crisis, I found a free online program for finding meaning and purpose and it helped me snap out of it and gave me direction.