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ste1200
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Hi, for some time now I've felt deep down really miserable.
I'm 30, male, slightly underweight, but with no serious health problems.
I shouldn't be unhappy, I've got a house, a steady job albeit not well paid, but its a job and a steady income with some possibilities for improvement. I have just got engaged to my long term girlfriend and have a positive future.
However I just always feel so tired and miserable. It all seemed to begin when I got gastritis 2 and half years ago. At that time I was drinking alot, smoking and had a terrible diet. Since then I've had all sorts of stomach and bowel problems, which for the time being have seemed to subside.
Since that point, I have stopped drinking alcohol almost all together. I have a very dry mouth alot of the time and alcohol makes it alot worse. I also am scared of how I will feel hungover. I have also stopped smoking and now have a healthy diet.
I seem to have turned my life around but instead of feeling good, I feel worse that ever.
As I don't go out drinking, I have pretty much lost all my friends, and don't go out socialising.
My job is stressful and I also have another couple of jobs to keep the money coming in, so I am busy, but not over-busy.
I don't know how to relax, I do yoga which helps, but I always seem to have racing thoughts. I often think of the past: stupid things from years and years ago that repeat over and over. Things that embarrassed me, but wouldnt have been a big deal to anyone else. Things that pleased me, again little things, compliments I have been given, that normally would be forgotten about 2 minutes after they happen, but I am remembering them 15 years down the line.
I don't really exercise, mainly being because I get really hot and can't seem to cool down. I also don't really like the feeling of being exhausted.
I feel so tired and my back, neck and shoulders seem to ache constantly. My eyes are really sore and I they are really sensitive to light. I get hot flushes from time to time and often feel overwhelmed for no reason. I think I have a phobia of being ill. If I get a sore throat for example, it will do my head in, and I will obsess about it. I just can't seem to snap out of this hole I am in.
Last Friday I had a sigmoidoscopy which came back normal. Instead of feeling happy and relieved, I was worrying that I could have picked up an infection in the hospital. I really struggle to find pleasure in anything. I constantly think about life and the way everything works, I can't seem to just live normally and be happy.
Am I depressed ? I feel so alone in the way I feel.
Ste
I'm 30, male, slightly underweight, but with no serious health problems.
I shouldn't be unhappy, I've got a house, a steady job albeit not well paid, but its a job and a steady income with some possibilities for improvement. I have just got engaged to my long term girlfriend and have a positive future.
However I just always feel so tired and miserable. It all seemed to begin when I got gastritis 2 and half years ago. At that time I was drinking alot, smoking and had a terrible diet. Since then I've had all sorts of stomach and bowel problems, which for the time being have seemed to subside.
Since that point, I have stopped drinking alcohol almost all together. I have a very dry mouth alot of the time and alcohol makes it alot worse. I also am scared of how I will feel hungover. I have also stopped smoking and now have a healthy diet.
I seem to have turned my life around but instead of feeling good, I feel worse that ever.
As I don't go out drinking, I have pretty much lost all my friends, and don't go out socialising.
My job is stressful and I also have another couple of jobs to keep the money coming in, so I am busy, but not over-busy.
I don't know how to relax, I do yoga which helps, but I always seem to have racing thoughts. I often think of the past: stupid things from years and years ago that repeat over and over. Things that embarrassed me, but wouldnt have been a big deal to anyone else. Things that pleased me, again little things, compliments I have been given, that normally would be forgotten about 2 minutes after they happen, but I am remembering them 15 years down the line.
I don't really exercise, mainly being because I get really hot and can't seem to cool down. I also don't really like the feeling of being exhausted.
I feel so tired and my back, neck and shoulders seem to ache constantly. My eyes are really sore and I they are really sensitive to light. I get hot flushes from time to time and often feel overwhelmed for no reason. I think I have a phobia of being ill. If I get a sore throat for example, it will do my head in, and I will obsess about it. I just can't seem to snap out of this hole I am in.
Last Friday I had a sigmoidoscopy which came back normal. Instead of feeling happy and relieved, I was worrying that I could have picked up an infection in the hospital. I really struggle to find pleasure in anything. I constantly think about life and the way everything works, I can't seem to just live normally and be happy.
Am I depressed ? I feel so alone in the way I feel.
Ste